No One Loves Me, I Will Live on My Own

I was born in a roadside shed in the pouring rain, and grew up in the quarrels and indifference of my native family. He was teased as a "sissy", bullied by his classmates, left alone in the mountains to herd cows and peel corn, and was thrown into the hospital as soon as he got off the operating table. My father was alcoholic and jealous, my mother was hardworking and harsh, and my brothers and sisters were cold and distant. During the years when no one loved me, I lived my life like an armor. Later, I studied hard and won various scholarships, but I still couldn't escape the pull of my family of origin; The person I truly loved turned around and got married, and the cat I regarded as a family member passed away from a serious illness. I worked three jobs, shouldered debts and my father's illness, and struggled repeatedly with collapse and persistence. I have asked myself countless times: Why do I have to endure so much? Later I finally understood—— If no one loves me, I will live by myself; if no one holds an umbrella, I will block it by myself; if there is no destination, I will become my own home. This book is filled with my embarrassment, pain and struggle, as well as my stubbornness, gentleness and rebirth. I reveal my truest self just to tell everyone who is experiencing pain: You are not alone, your persistence deserves to be seen, and your life ultimately has the final say.