Marriage first, love later｜Life abroad｜Boyfriend under 19 years old｜Exploration of desires｜Female growth
On the day the company suddenly closed down, I only had three months left on my visa.
He is three years younger than me, and I originally planned to fall in love with someone who would not be responsible.
"How about we get married."
He spoke rationally, even calmly.
Not a proposal, a solution.
There was no diamond ring, no ceremony, we got the certificate in a small church in Australia.
I thought it was just a stopgap measure.
But I didn't expect that the real beginning would be after marriage.
We rented a house together, were unemployed together, lay flat together to catch up on "The Legend of Zhen Huan", played board games together, and studied each other's bodies together.
He is more honest than me in his desires, more stable than me in his family, and more steadfast in his love than me.
And I started to realize -
I longed not just for marriage, but to be chosen.
Later I wanted to make films.
Not the kind of image that is consumed.
It's up to me to decide how women should be viewed.
This is a marriage story that begins with a visa crisis.
It is also the process of a woman re-understanding her desires and herself.
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