As the Queen's legitimate daughter, I have understood this since I was a child.
My father loves me, but with the alienation of an emperor; when others approach me, it is mostly with the intention of clinging to me.
So I pretended to be innocent and soft, kept my sense of proportion, hid my sharpness, and only acted as a peaceful and humble princess in the deep palace.
I spent my whole life pretending to be innocent.
I acted very well, I deceived my father, the harem, and almost deceived myself.
Until he met the young powerful official who was patrolling all over the world, Shen Ci.
He saw me being well-behaved and docile in front of others, but he whispered in my ear: "Princess, your acting is not real enough."
In front of others, he is a lonely minister and I am a princess, separated by a natural chasm between the king and his ministers.
Behind me, he gently stroked my hidden claws and said, "You don't have to pretend in front of me."
But we have all forgotten that we are in a situation where we cannot help ourselves.
I have been pretending to be good for half my life, not to let others manipulate me.
But - if you don't take action, that's it. Once you take action, you will be devastated.
He said: "Your Highness, I am here."
I raised my eyes: "Master Shen, there is no way for you and me to cross even one step."
But he insisted on going beyond.
He shields me from the sword in the court, and makes peace for me in the palace. Everyone in the world is afraid of him, but I only know that all his tenderness is only given to me.
But in the end, stability is a luxury, and staying together is a wishful thinking.
My sharp edge will eventually pierce him.
His loyalty will eventually fail me.
In this life, meeting each other is a mistake and staying together is a sin.
If there is an afterlife, I hope that we will meet each other for the first time in the ordinary streets, and we will not know the king or the minister.
It's a pity that he and I will never meet again.
