I Didn't Mean to Do That, Believe Me!

At first, I wrote this book for myself. After all, it was my first time writing it, and no one would read it anyway. Looking back at these words, they are full of youth and shortcomings: the plot is not rich enough, and many places can be polished more delicately; the emotional line between the two people is written thinly and straightforwardly, lacking some tension and layers; even when I write it often, it becomes a diary talking to myself, so plain that even when I re-read it, I feel a little unbearable. It is even more clumsy when writing about the feelings of straight men. I don't know how to get them to express clearly and express their feelings hidden in silence. It always seems stiff and hasty. Even though the writing style is immature, even though the emotions are straightforward, and even though there are countless shortcomings that need to be improved, I still insisted on finishing it. This is not a perfect book, but it is my most serious insistence. Insist on bringing it to a happy ending. Finally, thank you everyone for reading!

I've never written a book review before, even a long review, but I have a lot to say after reading this one. This book feels like a glass of iced Americano with sugar but not stirred well. The sweetness of sugar, the coolness of ice cubes, the mellow aroma of beans, and the bitterness of coffee. Xu Bin was really a sensitive and anxious boy at the beginning. I know it very well. He may look like a jerk. Repeating a question several times can even be annoying. But that insecurity and fear is anxiety and sensitivity at work. Xu Bin is a highly sensitive person, he can sense every bit of malice and kindness. This is something that ordinary people cannot understand and sympathize with. In severe cases, it may even cause internal friction for a long time because of someone else's words. These are like ice cubes that freeze the brain and cause a stinging sensation when put into the mouth. The author's writing style describes Xu Bin's pain very delicately. The straight male Zed in real life is not as beautiful as in the novel. Because homosexuality is not mainstream after all, just like Chen Hao in the book. He didn't even do anything, but he was ridiculed and ridiculed just when his orientation was known. Just like what the roommate next door and Cai Yujie said subconsciously prove that the current society still does not accept us. There were also the reactions of the parents from both families when they heard their son came out, especially Xu Bin's parents. When I saw this, my eyes felt sour. These experiences are often encountered in today's life. Not being understood, being cut off from relationships, or even being forced to separate from loved ones. But Xu Bin and Cai Yujie's parents are really very open-minded and tolerant. My mother once told me that homosexuality was disgusting and selfish. They don't care about their family's reputation and their family's face. But it is caused by fixed concepts. As Cai Yujie said in the book: "It's not your fault, it's just that they can't accept it. It's because the concepts from their older lives make them value face more." These are the bitterness in coffee. I think it's really touching that Xu Bin can talk things through with his family. The school's more tolerant environment, Xu Bin's reconciliation with his parents, Cai's father's acceptance, Cai Yujie's meticulous care, and the support from his sister, classmates and various people. They are all as sweet as sugar. I think the two-way running between Cai Yujie and Xu Bin is the best. Cai Yujie will notice Xu Bin's embarrassment and embarrassment, take care of Xu Bin's emotions, and hug Xu Bin sadly. Xu Bin will also make changes because of Cai Yujie's jealousy and insecurity. These details may seem ordinary, but they are hidden in every detail of their lives. Just like the fragrance of beans, if you only have one bean, you can only smell the fragrance if you get close. But if you have a bag of beans, the smell of the beans will spread into the air, and a kid can smell its strong aroma. The author does not use gorgeous rhetoric and rhetoric to describe Xu Bin and Cai Yujie. Using only the simplest line descriptions, every detail of their lives is described. Like I said, this is a glass of iced Americano with a unique and rich taste. If you eat it whole, you can only see its appearance. Hold it in your mouth and savor it carefully to taste the good taste.

How should I put it? From the front, it seems that there is an almost low-pressure feeling. The low-self-esteem male protagonist has endless random thoughts, and the second male lead's random actions seem to be ordinary care for the male protagonist. However, the author starts from the perspective of the two people, and it seems that everything is reasonable and reasonable, and everything is so close to reality. This is my true feeling.

The plot revolves around daily life, the rhythm of the ambiguous pull is well grasped, the logic is clear and not confusing, and the writing is delicate and not mindless. It is really good.

The description is quite good. This book is very beautiful and wonderful.

It's very beautiful, don't miss it if you are in the book wilderness.

It's really good, the story has twists and turns, and the writing is elegant.

A super nice book that describes the dreams of youth

The daily life of youth on campus is very pleasantly written. I really like reading it!

There is still room for improvement, keep it up 😄