[The lemon candy he gave me has expired, and my youth has contracted an incurable disease]
[Buddhist girl × Heaven's proud son | The pain of youth that grows out of sync | I choose to love myself after I wake up]
"I thought he was the end, but later I realized - he was just a signpost teaching me how to get to the end."
After studying by himself one night in his first year of high school, Yuchen saw Guan Mi in a milk tea shop.
He bent down and gave the little girl a lemon candy. When he raised his eyes, his smile was as clean as the morning star.
She thought she tasted the first sweet taste of youth.
He taught her to run, to spread her arms after the finish line;
He stayed up late to sort out her notes and said, "If you get into the first science class, I promise you anything."
She thought that they would be the right people for each other in their youth.
But later, he was admitted to T University and had a bright future in the laboratory;
She was diagnosed with anxiety disorder and suffered from a broken family and declining grades.
He said: "Chenchen, wait until I finish this..."
She looked at the pills in her palm and smiled bitterly: My "this period" seems to never get better.
On New Year's Eve, she witnessed him and Gao Ran side by side under the fireworks.
He smiled easily and brightly - an expression she hadn't seen on his face in a long time.
At that moment, Yuchen suddenly tasted that the seventeen-year-old lemon candy had turned out to be sour and expired.
"Guan Mi, let's break up."
"I don't need salvation, I just need to learn to breathe normally in a world without you."
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Years later, there was always a jar of lemon candies in Yuchen's consulting room.
A visitor asked: "Doctor, is this candy still sweet?"
She always smiled and shook her head.
No one knew, she never took it apart again.
Reader comments
I am an author, so I give five stars (purely not an objective evaluation) (｡•o•｡∩)
Although the pace is a bit slow in the beginning, it will return to the main plot later. This is a story that focuses on Yu Chen's growth. I admit that Guan Mi is very good.
"He is very good. In my darkest chapters, he was my only source of light.
But light belongs in the wilderness and should not be trapped in the mire. To me, he is salvation, but to him, I have become a crack that needs to be repaired repeatedly. He doesn't care about expending effort to maintain our common "project", he always doesn't care. But I can't ignore that at the age when he should be riding a horse and whipping his whip, he is tightening the reins for me again and again.
My core is a stubborn stone. I can neither become his wings nor allow myself to become his baggage. Love should not be a consumption, even a gentle consumption.
So separation is the last thing I can do for him. From now on, he will still shine brightly, but he no longer has to shine for me, I will shine for myself."
Life is not a straight line leading to a certain end, but a continuous becoming. Yuchen is also part of this flow. She walked through the shoals of fate, and also waded through the cold stream where her parents died; when she finally came into contact with the truth of her life experience, she found that it was just another swamp that needed to be swam through. However, so what? The meaning of generation is that every step counts. She once had a warm light and learned to let go in another light. They later disappeared at their respective intersections, but the passages they walked together did not disappear - they settled into the amber of time, becoming a gentle light that she could stare at again and again in the years to come.
The reason why that bright color is indelible is not because it is eternal, but because of the reality of its past existence.
I am an author, so I give five stars (purely not an objective evaluation) (｡•o•｡∩) Although the pace is a bit slow in the beginning, it will return to the main plot later. This is a story that focuses on Yu Chen's growth. I admit that Guan Mi is very good. "He is very good. In my darkest chapters, he was my only source of light. But light belongs in the wilderness and should not be trapped in the mire. To me, he is salvation, but to him, I have become a crack that needs to be repaired repeatedly. He doesn't care about expending effort to maintain our common "project", he always doesn't care. But I can't ignore that at the age when he should be riding a horse and whipping his whip, he is tightening the reins for me again and again. My core is a stubborn stone. I can neither become his wings nor allow myself to become his baggage. Love should not be a consumption, even a gentle consumption. So separation is the last thing I can do for him. From now on, he will still shine brightly, but he no longer has to shine for me, I will shine for myself." Life is not a straight line leading to a certain end, but a continuous becoming. Yuchen is also part of this flow. She walked through the shoals of fate, and also waded through the cold stream where her parents died; when she finally came into contact with the truth of her life experience, she found that it was just another swamp that needed to be swam through. However, so what? The meaning of generation is that every step counts. She once had a warm light and learned to let go in another light. They later disappeared at their respective intersections, but the passages they walked together did not disappear - they settled into the amber of time, becoming a gentle light that she could stare at again and again in the years to come. The reason why that bright color is indelible is not because it is eternal, but because of the reality of its past existence.