Betray ***********

What are you writing in such a mess, saying you don't want to live, and then running half-dead to your enemy's door, saying you don't deserve it, and then squandering the medicinal materials, with an expressionless, dazed face, a serious injury with bone-deep wounds all over your body, and you pull off the gauze yourself? ? Still taking a cold shower? ? ? ? No one behaves normally? ? If you want to die, just die. If someone saves you, you commit suicide. If you say you don't want to live, then you refuse others to give you medicine, instead of giving you medicine and then secretly mutilating yourself and taking a cold shower? ? ? It's outrageous. What kind of brain circuit does the author have? He doesn't want to live or die, forgets about someone else's bed, and then pulls gauze every day until it's bloody?