Secret love out of control: one hundred thousand heartbeats across the screen
[Two-way secret love + campus pulling + sweet healing + full online dating]
During a late-night team formation in the canyon, I, who was overwhelmed by the college entrance examination, met Gu Xun, a college student who was gentle to the core.
He was the one who stayed up late at night to help me sort out a collection of wrong questions. He was the one who gave me the confidence to transfer 100,000 yuan without a word when my dad couldn't raise the money for surgery. He was the person who integrated preference and appropriateness into daily life even though we were hundreds of kilometers apart.
I indulged in this cautious sweetness, watching Lin Xiao and Chen Yang entangled in the quarrel and tearing up. I envied them that even if they quarreled until their faces turned red, they could still be sure that the other would not leave. But there is a gap of reality between me and him, and an inferiority complex that I dare not express openly.
When filling out my application form, I did not dare to gamble on the possibility of crossing mountains and seas, so I secretly chose a local university. Later, with all the cowardice in my heart, I hid and traveled to Hangzhou - I was afraid that this heartbeat through the screen would not be able to withstand the scrutiny of reality, and I was afraid that the heavy kindness would make us cautious even when chatting.
We have never met each other, and we only rely on the screen to convey the fragments of joy and uneasiness. He said wait for me, and I said sorry. This throbbing that started in the canyon, in my escape, became the most secret concern in the chirping of cicadas in midsummer.
Until in the rain curtain in Hangzhou, his message lit up on the mobile phone screen, and the words were hot: "Don't be afraid of meeting, don't be afraid of the gap, as long as you are willing, I can wait for you for a long, long time."
