Gray**

What you see at the beginning is an inexplicable excitement, some joy, some excitement, and some depression. But at the end, it gradually enters a slightly curved curve, with a touch of peace of mind and warm emotions flowing slowly. It is a very good gay novel. A couple of digressions, I have recently separated from someone I have been with for more than a year. There have been many breakups before, so the problems we face this time are more profound. After we have been touched and shaken by each other, it is easy to love someone, but it is really easy to continue to love. I envy Lin Yan and Zhou Zhengchu in the book to be so sincere and redeem each other, to be indifferent and warm to each other, and to have a rare true love. Of course, there is no comparison between books and reality. In reality, both of us must have problems, and they are all mutual. Even if we know that the other person and we are in love, there are some things that are helpless and helpless. It's not easy for two people to be together. In the vast sea of ​​people, one's own loneliness becomes even more apparent, like a mayfly sent between heaven and earth. We seek outside all our lives, longing to be understood, longing to be tolerated, longing to be warmed by the love of others, but everything always goes against our wishes. The world's wishes are greed, anger and desire. If it is too excessive, too artificial, and inconsistent in knowledge and action, the wish will turn into resentment, which will only lead to one's own mistakes and failure. There is actually no point in saying so much here, but I just want to talk about some things, which have been particularly depressing in recent times. The feeling and mental impact I felt when I vented my emotions in the past were unimaginable. How many times late at night, how many times I shed tears, those sadness, grievances, and losses. Fallen, desperate, and no one can explain it. I believe he is also in pain, but we cannot easily see the inner turbulence of the people in the book like in the book, but we cannot understand the hesitation of the people around him. Perhaps, everything in a person's life has a certain destiny. Having said so much, I actually found something and connected with something while reading the book. As for me, him, Lin Yan and Zhou Zhengchu, we are all 14 years apart. In fact, some of the depictions of age in the book are a bit looser. If placed in reality, this would be a huge, serious gap.

This novel also reminds me of my love story. He was divorced at the age of 46 and I didn't have a boyfriend when I was 23. It was love at first sight. I was very restrained. After all, someone of his age should have a family, right? Later, I found out that he was single, and I was secretly happy, but I didn't dare to show it, and I didn't dare to chase him. I just passed by where he worked occasionally and looked forward to seeing him. Fortunately, he was bold and dared to chase me. Once an old man falls in love, it's like an old house on fire and cannot be saved. Now I am still very happy every day. When I have nothing to do, I mess with him, tease him, and send him messages: Hey, is Lao Niu here? The tender grass misses you [Adoration]

Cocoa (say important things three times)

Time passes slowly, recommended.

It's really good to write about the inner struggles of a middle-aged man who doesn't have the courage to break out of the prison, but doesn't give up and lives a trouble-free life.

I rarely see this kind of thing. It feels very different. I recommend [Bird Food Masterpiece]

Emotional expression is very delicate

It's rare to see someone this old, so good-looking