The Fall and Reverse Journey of an Innocent Young Woman

A very rare novel about "New Generation Emotional Relationship" that is written seriously. The heroine feels constrained and depressed in a traditional marriage, and encounters a scheming man when trying to escape. With the encouragement of her husband, she tries an open relationship (polyamory), but her husband feels tired and doesn't want a divorce. After that, the heroine started various attempts at new emotional relationships (blind guessing about situational relationships, fast food love, etc.). The author provides a new perspective on marital relationships. Recommended for readers interested in psychology. Shi Yun is an explorer who is full of vitality but immature, eager to transcend but lacks courage. She is traditional in body and indulgent in mind. Her "infidelity" exposed the common problem of neglecting spiritual needs in modern marriages, and her "contradiction" is the epitome of many people struggling between traditional and modern values. What she needs most right now is not the beginning of any new relationship, but a deep, inward journey. She needs to understand that the real "third light" is not between two men, but between her broken old self and her unformed new self. Only by first integrating the "black" (desire, selfishness, vulnerability) and "white" (morality, responsibility, ideals) in her heart can she see the path of the outside world clearly and make a choice without regret. The core of her story is a woman's individual growth, not a multiple-choice love question.

I'll give it four stars first. It contains thoughts on marriage and love, but the characters are falsely rich. The protagonist is confused and thinking, exploring and moving forward, but lacks a kind of determination on the road to search. The author describes it as the power to find oneself and become oneself without any restraints. But my personal impression is that the protagonist is just experiencing new things, having new resonances with new characters, and looking for a new path? Were they all discovered? Your self-conscious thinking as a subject is not reflected. The so-called choices in the early stage are those given to you by others, and you can choose them, not your choice. I'm really looking forward to the author describing this third possibility and expressing his true feelings. If he makes false claims, I'll give him a bad review.

How can pure love be corrupted? Want both and want it! Standing on the shore and looking at the sea is actually a microcosm of the real life of many people before they grow old.