After Hearing the Emperor's Voice, I Was so Upset

I am the queen, but the emperor doesn't love me. He loves the imperial concubine, that woman who can be coquettish and shed tears. Until that day I unexpectedly heard his voice. When the imperial concubine said, "I only want you as my concubine," he thought: "Crying is so ugly, it would be worse than the queen not speaking." When I punished the concubine by kneeling down, I thought: "I am finally willing to take charge of things. If you don't care about me anymore, I will be deposed." Later I decided to continue being virtuous and generous. But he threw the teacup: "Can't you be jealous even once?"