Living with the Disease

In the 1950s, my grandfather married my grandmother, a Japanese woman he had fallen in love with while studying in the United States, and settled down in rural China. My grandmother, who had no social experience since she was a child and was simple-minded, felt like she was cursed to live in China. She constantly experienced all kinds of pain and sadness, and finally became gloomy and sensitive. Because my grandmother was a Japanese woman, my mother lived in endless pain during her girlhood. Due to the grandfather's partiality and the grandmother's escape, extremely serious conflicts between mother and daughter, and between father and daughter, finally forced the mother to flee this desperate family. After that, my mother experienced another wrong love and finally gave birth to "me". "I" was just an ordinary country girl at first, but after experiencing the death of her mother and grandfather in her childhood, she became a withdrawn, gloomy, silent, negative, lost... Girl with serious psychological problems. Later, my grandmother returned to Japan when "I" was twelve years old, and "I" lived with my mother's childhood playmate, Mr. Dongying. However, in my heart, "I" hated the man who lived with me. When I was seventeen years old, "I" suddenly learned that my grandmother had passed away many years ago, so I suffered from amnesia, and my body was taken over by a girl named "Morihara Aika"... The first part of the book (Coexisting with Illness) is from the perspective of the lost novelist Yi Gongchen, telling some people and things that happened when Morihara Aika took over the body during the period of "I" memory...