The Redemption of the Clothed Beast

He was once the clear-eyed and proud boy in middle school. He won cheers on the court and swore to the stars on his graduation summer night: He would never do anything he regrets in his life, and he would always be loyal to his own heartbeat. Ten years passed, and more than a dozen girls accompanied him on his journey like a way station. They loved him, nourished him, and "upgraded" him—teaching him appropriate clothing, subtle love words, how to read people's hearts, and how to say goodbye more neatly. He grew from an ignorant boy to a man with ease, but along the way, he gradually lost the person he was when he first swore to himself. He couldn't tell what was love and what was the echo of desire. The moral bottom line keeps retreating, just like the difficulty of the game continues to decrease. His girlfriend is gentle and sensible, giving him stability and sincerity, but he still cheats on her again and again. It's not because she's not good enough, but because he's already addicted to that kind of excitement that he can only feel when he's on the edge of danger, and that he's still alive. He is like a greedy "heartbeat addict", weaving a web of lies and injecting freshness into his veins. He thought this was freedom, a life without regrets. Little does he know that he has already turned his life into a beautiful tragedy: he can get love easily, but can no longer believe in love; he can get many people, but his heart is more desolate than anyone else. Until one early morning, when he looked at his sleeping lover next to him, he saw an ambiguous message on his cell phone—— He suddenly remembered that when he was fourteen years old, his heart beat wildly all night just because he held the hand of the girl he liked. At that moment, he was shocked to realize: It turns out that he never escaped the pursuit of "regret"... And what he lost was more than just innocence.