Synopsis: [Mutual pining] [Missed chances] [Angsty youth romance] [Cool, elegant, gender-nonconforming girl and sunny, handsome, innocent boy] [Sensitive, perceptive, gentle older sister Xu Siyou and warm, charming young heir Shen Huai]
Xu Siyou stands alone on a rainy night, when a beam of light suddenly shines into her dark world.
Shen Huai, the dazzling, heaven-blessed son, barges into her life without warning.
From the moment he calls her “Senior,” color gradually begins to fill her blank world.
They are both just fourteen, too young to understand love, yet they carefully hold each other in their hearts.
Trapped by her family, Xu Siyou develops psychological problems. Crippling insecurity and anxiety make her afraid to face someone as dazzling as Shen Huai, so she can only pretend to grow distant and slowly pull away from the boy who seems like a god.
She is like a rat living in a gutter, unwilling to bring her bad luck to anyone else.
After parting and meeting again several times, Shen Huai has already left a deep mark on her heart. He is the only person she has ever loved.
“I’m not good enough for someone as wonderful as him.”
“He’s the sun for everyone, but not for her, lost in the dark.”
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At twenty-two, Shen Huai moves overseas. Xu Siyou learns in the class group chat that he is about to get married. Her heart turns to ashes, but she still smiles as she sends him her congratulations.
Even though he is about to marry, she still can’t forget him.
“Shen Huai, after all these years, you’re still the only one I love.”
“I wish you peace and happiness, free from sickness and misfortune. And if misfortune does come, I’ll take it for you.”
At twenty-four, Shen Huai dies saving her.
“I’m sorry. If I could, I’d trade my life for your peace and happiness.”
The content of the book is very interesting and the plot is also exciting, especially the part where Siyou is in the hospital. I hope the author can continue to read more. I want to read it.