Forbidden Butterfly Love, Crazy Criticizing the Male Protagonist for Escaping to Death

[Crazy criticism + bigotry + gods + taboo sadomasochism + heroine's initiative to take revenge] I, Tan Die, was born to be a chess piece for revenge, destined to lick blood on the tip of the knife. Until I met Su Guang. He, a god with snowy hair and glazed eyes, is actually a complete madman. He cleared away the obstacles to my revenge, and the supreme law crushed an ant to death; he wiped away my blood and turned the entire sect into ashes. Everyone is afraid of him, but I regard him as the most useful "key" on the road to revenge. I used him, was wary of him, planned to squeeze out all his value, and then turned around and left. But I saw the future - I will kill him with my own hands! I was frightened and fled, trying to get rid of this damn fate. But he stroked my cheek gently and smiled softly and sickly: "Don't be afraid, it is the greatest honor of my life to die in your hands." Later, in order to save me, he really shattered into millions of glaze butterflies in front of me. He died and I went crazy. This time, it's me who will crush the Nine Heavens and reverse the cause and effect—— Su Guang, your life can only be mine!