The 21-year-old Usami Suzu, who won the Akutagawa Prize, made her debut with a topic that focuses on her original family! The ultimate confession of love for my mother!
The ultimate confession of love for my mother is that I want to give birth to my mother so that she can start a happy and perfect life again.
Winner of the Mishima Yukio Award and Japan Literary Award.
The 19-year-old protagonist Xiaotu is repeating her studies, but neither she nor her mother can hold on any longer.
Her mother has not felt the love of her grandma since she was a child, and because of her father's cheating and domestic violence, she suffered from heart disease after the divorce and was drunk all day long. Xiaotu can only find some comfort in a small social network. A fragile mother, a selfish father, Little Rabbit who was born a girl, a family connected by blood... Little Rabbit hates everything that restrains him, and even more hates himself who is restrained. With a reckless prayer, she set off to Xiongye alone, to save her fragile and about to collapse mother in a simple way unique to her age.
Reader comments
You will go crazy after reading this...
Speaking of books, I also deeply love my body. But it is undeniable that I am as ugly as Little Rabbit. Can grief and misfortune be compared? I also had the shameful thought of wishing that I was the most unlucky person in the world, so that I could yell and say "I don't want to live anymore! I want to die!" With peace of mind. I also felt jealous of the sympathy of others who expressed their grief. What a contradiction. I obviously want sunny days, just like summer in the countryside, spending a carefree summer in an old house in an old mountain. But he was so irritated that he died.
What exactly is love? It is clear that when you get close, there will be unhappiness and estrangement. It is so dark that you want the source of the trouble to die, but every time you relent, you point the finger at yourself, and you feel that you are the source of the misfortune.
I hate their immature behavior. Maybe it's really my turn to give birth to my parents.
In fact, everyone just wants a tolerant love! Just pure love! Why the accusation! It shouldn't be like this…but this is the reality that most people experience! No matter what kind of experience you have, if you can empathize with this text, you are looking for love, right?
It was quite uncomfortable after reading it. Kaka is so miserable, and so is Little Rabbit.
"Kaka was originally the god of the little rabbit, but he is no longer a god because he gave birth to the little rabbit."
I felt confused halfway through, so I went back and read it again. Xiaotu is "me", Nong is the younger brother, and Kaka is the mother. The confusing person switching is to externalize the chaotic and painful inner state of "I".
Kaka kept repeating, "Grandma, she told me, 'Because Xizi was pitiful without a playmate, I gave birth to Nong by the way.' Kaka was born as an accessory. Almost all of my grandma's love was devoted to my sister Xizi..."
If you don't care, why keep repeating it? Kaka knew the fact that he was not loved by his mother, so he placed his love on Tuo Tuo. After Tuo Tuo had an affair, Kaka faced a mental breakdown. Xiaotu and Kaka's mother and daughter were connected. She felt Kaka's pain and pain. She loved Kaka, but she hated Kaka. Little Rabbit, do you love more than you hate or hate more than love?
Very realistic and real. It kind of reminds me of my relationship with my mother. My mother may be more extreme than Kaka, but I am not a single parent.
Grandma's preference for Kaka changed from aunt to Akiko
Little Rabbit answered the question about Typhoon. Grandma didn't say anything.
But when Akiko asked why Muyuhua was praised by her grandma for dancing, it felt so uncomfortable. I hate being treated differently [I almost cried]
You will go crazy after reading this... Speaking of books, I also deeply love my body. But it is undeniable that I am as ugly as Little Rabbit. Can grief and misfortune be compared? I also had the shameful thought of wishing that I was the most unlucky person in the world, so that I could yell and say "I don't want to live anymore! I want to die!" With peace of mind. I also felt jealous of the sympathy of others who expressed their grief. What a contradiction. I obviously want sunny days, just like summer in the countryside, spending a carefree summer in an old house in an old mountain. But he was so irritated that he died. What exactly is love? It is clear that when you get close, there will be unhappiness and estrangement. It is so dark that you want the source of the trouble to die, but every time you relent, you point the finger at yourself, and you feel that you are the source of the misfortune. I hate their immature behavior. Maybe it's really my turn to give birth to my parents. In fact, everyone just wants a tolerant love! Just pure love! Why the accusation! It shouldn't be like this…but this is the reality that most people experience! No matter what kind of experience you have, if you can empathize with this text, you are looking for love, right?
It was quite uncomfortable after reading it. Kaka is so miserable, and so is Little Rabbit. "Kaka was originally the god of the little rabbit, but he is no longer a god because he gave birth to the little rabbit."
I felt confused halfway through, so I went back and read it again. Xiaotu is "me", Nong is the younger brother, and Kaka is the mother. The confusing person switching is to externalize the chaotic and painful inner state of "I". Kaka kept repeating, "Grandma, she told me, 'Because Xizi was pitiful without a playmate, I gave birth to Nong by the way.' Kaka was born as an accessory. Almost all of my grandma's love was devoted to my sister Xizi..." If you don't care, why keep repeating it? Kaka knew the fact that he was not loved by his mother, so he placed his love on Tuo Tuo. After Tuo Tuo had an affair, Kaka faced a mental breakdown. Xiaotu and Kaka's mother and daughter were connected. She felt Kaka's pain and pain. She loved Kaka, but she hated Kaka. Little Rabbit, do you love more than you hate or hate more than love?
Very realistic and real. It kind of reminds me of my relationship with my mother. My mother may be more extreme than Kaka, but I am not a single parent. Grandma's preference for Kaka changed from aunt to Akiko Little Rabbit answered the question about Typhoon. Grandma didn't say anything. But when Akiko asked why Muyuhua was praised by her grandma for dancing, it felt so uncomfortable. I hate being treated differently [I almost cried]