As the emperor and I were about to consummate our marriage, his wet nurse accidentally took an aphrodisiac and tearfully begged her husband to help her relieve its effects.
Worried that my husband, the ruler of an entire nation, might suffer damage to his reputation, I immediately summoned the finest imperial physician to treat the wet nurse.
But when she woke up, she began weeping and knelt before me.
"A lowly wet nurse like me is naturally no match for the empress's wedding night. I know you can't stand me, but I beg you, let me die by his side!"
With that, she threw herself into my husband's arms and bit her tongue to kill herself.
My husband ordered the eunuchs to drag her corpse to the mass grave, so it wouldn't offend my eyes.
Yet in the five years after our wedding, I still hadn't conceived.
The day the imperial physician discovered I was pregnant, my husband forced a huge bowl of aphrodisiac down my throat.
He summoned the palace eunuchs and guards to join in the debauchery, then watched as they took turns violating me.
"I'll make you suffer all the humiliation and pain she suffered, you wretch."
"If you hadn't been so jealous of her status as a wet nurse, she wouldn't have died with resentment!"
Though I was the empress, the eunuchs used me as a tool for their lust. In the end, I was mutilated into a human swine and tortured to death.
When I opened my eyes again, I was back on the day the wet nurse had asked my husband for help.
This time, I silently closed the door behind them...
