All because Jiang Moyin once said, "My heart is devoted to Buddha, so I have no worldly desires."
I spent six years secretly married to him abroad, living in seclusion, all to bring this Buddha down from his altar.
I tried to seduce him 999 times in those six years, yet never managed to shake Jiang Moyin's resolve.
Then one bitterly cold night, worried he might be freezing, I brought a basin of hot water and a wool blanket to the meditation room to see him,
only to glimpse him through a crack, sitting on the floor with a photograph in his hand.
It was of his older brother's fiancée, Lu An'an.
The blanket slipped from my arms, and a chill filled my heart.
So he wasn't free of desire. He simply never loved me.