(No romance / feel-good story / lots of handsome men) “Emotionally detached” + “drama queen possessed”
“In the survival game, she's the most romantic madwoman.”
Zhu Zhuo was born emotionally detached, yet obsessed with everything “beautiful”: handsome men, works of art, broken vows, the tremor in a dying person's pupils...
“Disaster Aesthetics Maniac” is her codename and her philosophy of survival.
While other players tremble through each instance, living only to stay alive, Zhu Zhuo enjoys playing her roles:
One second she's an unhinged queen bee, the next a foul-mouthed test subject. A moment ago she was flirting with a handsome man in a sultry voice, and the next she's already forgotten him~
She's frivolous, arrogant, and always spouting abstract nonsense, as if nothing matters to her.
But nobody knows that those “beautiful memories” she deliberately creates
a kiss, a dance, even a smile in her final moments
are all spiritual painkillers she uses to fill the emptiness in her soul...
“Darling, don't fall for me.”
“I just... loved you for a little while.”
An unhinged aesthete heroine: emotionally detached, yet in pursuit of the ultimate romance, she uses “experiencing beauty” to replace the emotional needs of ordinary people.
A role-playing fanatic: she slips into her identity for each instance in a second, using her acting and teasing to cover up her schemes.
She creates brief, blazing stories only to save herself.
Contains spoilers, first read the setting (Chapter 5) and the heroine's side story (Chapter 52) and then watch it, the impression will be better, similar to a unit drama, the early stage is slightly inferior, but the writing is obviously getting better in the later stage. The heroine has a rather heartless character. She is indifferent and doesn't want to form too many bonds with people, but she also likes to create some beautiful memories as spiritual food for herself. She is more inclined to pursue Platonic aesthetics. (I guess she may have multiple personalities. Her personality is contradictory and she wants to contact more people but is afraid of being too deeply bonded...). The heroine likes role-playing (the experience of changing identities will make her secrete dopamine). Don't over-introduce the heroine. Her emotional range is different from that of normal people. Her level of emotional indifference is similar to that of someone who doesn't shed tears just after a relative dies... It's not that she is emotionally slow, but that she doesn't have the ability to empathize.
How should I put it? It feels a bit like reading someone's diary, a bit fragmented and not particularly coherent. It's a very new way of writing articles (I haven't seen this type of writing before anyway). Some people should like it. Get used to five-star reviews and support the author.