[Asperger's College Student × Retired E-Sports World ChampionCounterattack×Secret Love Comes True×Psychological RedemptionShuangjie]
[Fan turns into tutor, secret love reveals true form]
Shi Miao × Lu Zhao
A story about a sunflower and her sun.
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2018.10.7
The weather is sunny. If I get first place in the mock test, will he see me?
2019.9.1
I saw his name on the class list! But he dropped out of school and entered the e-sports youth training camp [crying face]
2020.5.1
I don't want to like you anymore. Can't do it.
I am happy and unhappy to see you being hailed as a dark horse by them.
It is a sad process to go from "seeing" to "looking from a distance". Lu Zhao, I seem to be out of reach for you.
This pear is so astringent that I don't want to eat it anymore.
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Shi Miao has been secretly in love with Lu Zhao for five years. She went from being an average person in the middle to being number one in the class. From being nowhere on the list to having her papers circulated everywhere, she is the dark horse in the teacher's eyes. No one knew that she was thinking about the topic after class and even during meals just because of one person, just because she hoped that when that person knew her, what they would hear was "She is talented and beautiful." Instead of "Shi Miao? That fat girl from Class 3?"
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She was just about to give up her love for him, but on the first day of tutoring, the student who had been rejecting her revealed his true face after the door clicked - Lu Zhao.
What's even more frightening is that he seems to remember her; not Shi Miao, but the girl who was looking at him from the audience.
"Have you... Come to see my game?" He asked directly.
"Wha, what game?" She was uneasy.
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Secret love is like biting into an astringent pear, it is obviously sour, but because it is you, it is sweet and delicious.
Reader comments
I'm afraid that many people won't see me writing here about the heroine.
The heroine is based on myself, and 90% of the experience is my personal experience. I am Asperger, I was raped at home, at school, and by xsr. One thing I know most is that resistance will be hit harder, and the force of b will never stop. I didn't have the ability or confidence to end everything, so I could only bear it. My resistance would only make me get beaten more severely.
I beg you, those of you who have been lucky enough to avoid this, know that not all requests for help are helpful, and asking for help may make another person a silent accomplice.
What kind of person do you think would be created in this situation? What kind of person do you think it will be created?
It's good if you can survive, and you're tough if you can survive.
What I write is about growth. My growth is also Shi Miao's growth.
I don't like this society, I don't like this world, there are many things I don't like. But some people like their world, some like their society, and some like their space, because everyone has individual differences. I have always believed that I am not qualified to judge anyone other than myself, and by the same token, others are not qualified to judge.
This article was written by me to vent my feelings, and it is also what I want to write about myself. Shi Miao and Chen Muqing are both me, and the rest are characters I observed and created subjectively. But Shi Miao and Chen Muqing are me.
I think I have said it many, many times and have been emphasizing that characters are not perfect, and I cannot be perfect in everyone's eyes. No one can be perfect in everyone's eyes. I only write about one person, I only write "person".
What I write about is a small world where I live, a timeless world.
This itself is a bit serious. This is not a cool article. If you want to read a cool article, please take a detour. I am really tired.
I didn't think too much about it when I first started writing. I just became greedy after receiving support and wanted to be seen by more people, so I continued writing. I don't like writing, but someone likes the stories I write, and I am inspired, so I write. Sooner or later I will close the book, I hope so.
I really hope that someone can calm down and think about what they have not seen, instead of making subjective assumptions.
Wish us all happiness.
The author writes very carefully! Even though it's HE, I've already wet several headbands from crying, so I'll just have tissues ready when I'm around chapter 40. If you want to see the ultimate secret love story without thinking, that's it [laughing]
Chen Muqing is really upset, I will always remember his [crying][crying][crying]
It's really a very well-written book. It's so good that I don't know how to describe it. I don't know how to describe it. I don't know how to use fancy words. I'll just use long and flowing words to evaluate it. The heroine walked alone through the road of secret love for five years. The journey was very sour, but luckily she got her wish in the end. The hero also treated the heroine tenderly. There is no scene in this book where two women compete for one man. There are a group of very beautiful people in it. The second male is the one I can't stand the most. He is born to be world-weary. If he hadn't been in love with the heroine for ten years to support him, he might not have been able to hold on long ago. He protected the heroine silently and bravely protected her when she encountered danger. He never asked for anything in return. Even if he committed suicide in the end, he didn't want to be a burden... There is a lot to say but I don't know how to express it in words. I hope everyone will be happy every day.
This can be said to be the first book that made me start from the beginning to the end. My ability to empathize is relatively strong, so I can't watch it. The author's writing is super, super good! I like a person's inferiority and sourness. Because I like you, no matter how difficult the road of growth is, I can bear it. Human nature is contradictory and complex. There are good and bad things in the world. Everyone sees things from a different perspective, and naturally the information they receive is also different. The wounds will scab but the scars will remain forever. I hope that the author and every reader can turn scars into all kinds of beautiful flowers!!! I also wish you peace and joy. No matter what you experience, it is a test on our growth path. I hope we meet at the top!
Really good-looking
Chen Muqing, I really cried to death! ! !
The author's writing style is super delicate. Very beautiful, highly recommended!
Chen Muqing, I really cried to death [crying][crying][crying] Looking at a good person from God's perspective shouldn't end like this, but looking at it from Chen Muqing's perspective is another kind of relief. I hope Chen Muqing will be happy every day in another world [crying][crying]
The writing style of this book is very delicate. The author's writing is really good. I kept crying while reading it. It reminded me of the story when I was in junior high school. The story is also very well written [blowing kiss][crying]
The author's writing style is really good, very delicate, and very real. You can quickly be moved by the emotions in the book just by reading the words. Although it is he, I feel that there is still a touch of sadness. Shi Miao, who has been in the mud for so many years, was really helpless when he was young. The unique and brave Chen Muqing chose a different and true liberation in his own way [crying]
During the reading process, the author used her writing style to render the emotions very well, which made me shed tears unconsciously after reading part of the content. Chen Muqing's ending was unexpected for me, and perhaps a relief for him. In the past, I have read stories with big female protagonists, but in this book, there are more stories about ordinary girls.
This novel is actually the perspective of many people's secret love, because they always feel that secret love may not necessarily have results. It is just like the author said, secret love is a pear. Chen Muqing is the only one I can't help but cry to death. I hope he can live a happy life in another parallel world, and I hope all people who have a secret love will have results~
Very well written, treasure
Ah ah Chen Qingmu, he is like a ball of extremely brilliant fire. He is a very contradictory person, but it is this contradiction that shapes his beauty. It is indescribable and full of emotions, but it is really impressive.
Extremely gorgeous and erosive beauty
His love is always available (no intention of breaking the CP)
Then it's sweet that the main CPs heal each other
Baby Miao Miao is becoming more and more brave. Baby, your Miao Miao is not a small Miao, but a vast Miao.
The writing style of this book is just like the "astringent" title of the book. Every part is very delicate and a bit obscure, but this is not annoying, but attractive. Her writing style blended well with the tone of the heroine in this book, which gave me a deeper understanding of Shi Miao's experiences.
2025.8.30 The author's writing is very good, and the extras made me laugh so hard, hahaha, I recommend everyone to read it. The heroine's psychology when she has a crush is very similar to mine. I can bring it in, think about it but not think about it, and it feels very deliberate. In short, I hope we can all be happy and safe.
The author writes the sourness of secret love vividly. The emotions of each character are vividly written. It is really sad to be involved. We can't comment much on Chen Muqing's departure. I just wish him happiness in another world, just like what Shi Miao said in the end. Finally, I wish Shi Miao and Sol happiness in their world. I believe Shi Lu will grow up happily in a family full of love.
The book is quite nice, but there are too many unknown characters and obscure phrases, which really affects the perception [crying] There are still many flaws. I hope the author can make more improvements to make the book better and more people can read it. [Sending heartfelt wishes]
It is really my favorite novel recently. My words cannot express my love for this book. The author's writing style is also very good. Anyway, I highly recommend it! ! !
The author's writing style is very special and profound, and reading it is like watching an art film. The characters in the book all have their own unique souls, and it is not a cookie-cutter novel. I like what the author said very much. Everyone in the book is a protagonist and an independent individual. This is a very good novel that I think.
I came in based on the introduction and finished it in one night. I can only say that it was very enjoyable. The author's writing style is also very good. I like it very much. I will read all the author's other works [send heart][send heart][send heart][send heart][send heart][send heart][send heart][send heart]
The writing is very, very good, the beautiful vocabulary dazzled me, and the friendship between the girls is really enjoyable to watch. And the characters are also very well-shaped [send my heart] [send my heart]
The author describes the character's heart and growth very delicately. Chen Muqing is pure and easy to understand😭. The reason for the lack of heart is because there are too many obscure words in it, which affects the perception a bit, but overall it is still good.
It's so beautiful. The writing is very delicate. It's a very real crush. It reminds me of my high school experience. I recommend it😻😻😻
I feel so sorry for Shi Miao. I rushed to write a review before I finished reading. Really, I just want more people to love Shi Miao. She is so bitter. I can't help but feel sour in my heart when I see those words. I hope she is happy and doesn't suffer anymore.
Miaomiao wants to be happy, always happy.
Chen Muqing, you will be very happy when you see the dimness of happiness. I hope you will be equally happy in another world.
[2023.1.22
It's the early morning of the Spring Festival in 2023. He jumped with me from the year I was eighteen to the year I was nineteen. The change of time seems to be a "click".
Although there is a distance of 1,484 kilometers across the screen, I can't see his face and I'm not by his side, I feel so touched to be able to watch a movie with him that I'm quite happy with.
Secret love is so painful, but if he takes one step closer to me, he will fall into the pure land of happiness. "
[2023.8.22
I don't know how long I will keep this secret of liking you. I want to hold your hand and hug you.
And I hope you can just turn your back to me and let me look at your back.
Because as soon as I meet you face to face, the first thing I want to do is to run away. "
——"Astringent Pear"
February 22, 2026 Ershiliu
There is not much to say except that the author's writing style is delicate and his emotions are sincere. I give this book five stars and wish the author happiness every day and smooth sailing.
I have to give a good review for the writing style and the portrayal of the protagonist in this bookJ
(It's really relatable) Although there are not many chapters, the writing style is delicate and a bit profound. In short, the story is good and the characters are very three-dimensional.
Highly recommended!
The best Chen Muqing
Super beautiful article, only those who have had a crush can understand it😭😭😭
I'm afraid that many people won't see me writing here about the heroine. The heroine is based on myself, and 90% of the experience is my personal experience. I am Asperger, I was raped at home, at school, and by xsr. One thing I know most is that resistance will be hit harder, and the force of b will never stop. I didn't have the ability or confidence to end everything, so I could only bear it. My resistance would only make me get beaten more severely. I beg you, those of you who have been lucky enough to avoid this, know that not all requests for help are helpful, and asking for help may make another person a silent accomplice. What kind of person do you think would be created in this situation? What kind of person do you think it will be created? It's good if you can survive, and you're tough if you can survive. What I write is about growth. My growth is also Shi Miao's growth. I don't like this society, I don't like this world, there are many things I don't like. But some people like their world, some like their society, and some like their space, because everyone has individual differences. I have always believed that I am not qualified to judge anyone other than myself, and by the same token, others are not qualified to judge. This article was written by me to vent my feelings, and it is also what I want to write about myself. Shi Miao and Chen Muqing are both me, and the rest are characters I observed and created subjectively. But Shi Miao and Chen Muqing are me. I think I have said it many, many times and have been emphasizing that characters are not perfect, and I cannot be perfect in everyone's eyes. No one can be perfect in everyone's eyes. I only write about one person, I only write "person". What I write about is a small world where I live, a timeless world. This itself is a bit serious. This is not a cool article. If you want to read a cool article, please take a detour. I am really tired. I didn't think too much about it when I first started writing. I just became greedy after receiving support and wanted to be seen by more people, so I continued writing. I don't like writing, but someone likes the stories I write, and I am inspired, so I write. Sooner or later I will close the book, I hope so. I really hope that someone can calm down and think about what they have not seen, instead of making subjective assumptions. Wish us all happiness.
The author writes very carefully! Even though it's HE, I've already wet several headbands from crying, so I'll just have tissues ready when I'm around chapter 40. If you want to see the ultimate secret love story without thinking, that's it [laughing] Chen Muqing is really upset, I will always remember his [crying][crying][crying]
It's really a very well-written book. It's so good that I don't know how to describe it. I don't know how to describe it. I don't know how to use fancy words. I'll just use long and flowing words to evaluate it. The heroine walked alone through the road of secret love for five years. The journey was very sour, but luckily she got her wish in the end. The hero also treated the heroine tenderly. There is no scene in this book where two women compete for one man. There are a group of very beautiful people in it. The second male is the one I can't stand the most. He is born to be world-weary. If he hadn't been in love with the heroine for ten years to support him, he might not have been able to hold on long ago. He protected the heroine silently and bravely protected her when she encountered danger. He never asked for anything in return. Even if he committed suicide in the end, he didn't want to be a burden... There is a lot to say but I don't know how to express it in words. I hope everyone will be happy every day.
This can be said to be the first book that made me start from the beginning to the end. My ability to empathize is relatively strong, so I can't watch it. The author's writing is super, super good! I like a person's inferiority and sourness. Because I like you, no matter how difficult the road of growth is, I can bear it. Human nature is contradictory and complex. There are good and bad things in the world. Everyone sees things from a different perspective, and naturally the information they receive is also different. The wounds will scab but the scars will remain forever. I hope that the author and every reader can turn scars into all kinds of beautiful flowers!!! I also wish you peace and joy. No matter what you experience, it is a test on our growth path. I hope we meet at the top!
Really good-looking Chen Muqing, I really cried to death! ! ! The author's writing style is super delicate. Very beautiful, highly recommended!
Chen Muqing, I really cried to death [crying][crying][crying] Looking at a good person from God's perspective shouldn't end like this, but looking at it from Chen Muqing's perspective is another kind of relief. I hope Chen Muqing will be happy every day in another world [crying][crying]
The writing style of this book is very delicate. The author's writing is really good. I kept crying while reading it. It reminded me of the story when I was in junior high school. The story is also very well written [blowing kiss][crying]
The author's writing style is really good, very delicate, and very real. You can quickly be moved by the emotions in the book just by reading the words. Although it is he, I feel that there is still a touch of sadness. Shi Miao, who has been in the mud for so many years, was really helpless when he was young. The unique and brave Chen Muqing chose a different and true liberation in his own way [crying]
During the reading process, the author used her writing style to render the emotions very well, which made me shed tears unconsciously after reading part of the content. Chen Muqing's ending was unexpected for me, and perhaps a relief for him. In the past, I have read stories with big female protagonists, but in this book, there are more stories about ordinary girls.
This novel is actually the perspective of many people's secret love, because they always feel that secret love may not necessarily have results. It is just like the author said, secret love is a pear. Chen Muqing is the only one I can't help but cry to death. I hope he can live a happy life in another parallel world, and I hope all people who have a secret love will have results~
Very well written, treasure Ah ah Chen Qingmu, he is like a ball of extremely brilliant fire. He is a very contradictory person, but it is this contradiction that shapes his beauty. It is indescribable and full of emotions, but it is really impressive. Extremely gorgeous and erosive beauty His love is always available (no intention of breaking the CP) Then it's sweet that the main CPs heal each other Baby Miao Miao is becoming more and more brave. Baby, your Miao Miao is not a small Miao, but a vast Miao.
The writing style of this book is just like the "astringent" title of the book. Every part is very delicate and a bit obscure, but this is not annoying, but attractive. Her writing style blended well with the tone of the heroine in this book, which gave me a deeper understanding of Shi Miao's experiences.
2025.8.30 The author's writing is very good, and the extras made me laugh so hard, hahaha, I recommend everyone to read it. The heroine's psychology when she has a crush is very similar to mine. I can bring it in, think about it but not think about it, and it feels very deliberate. In short, I hope we can all be happy and safe.
The author writes the sourness of secret love vividly. The emotions of each character are vividly written. It is really sad to be involved. We can't comment much on Chen Muqing's departure. I just wish him happiness in another world, just like what Shi Miao said in the end. Finally, I wish Shi Miao and Sol happiness in their world. I believe Shi Lu will grow up happily in a family full of love.
The book is quite nice, but there are too many unknown characters and obscure phrases, which really affects the perception [crying] There are still many flaws. I hope the author can make more improvements to make the book better and more people can read it. [Sending heartfelt wishes]
It is really my favorite novel recently. My words cannot express my love for this book. The author's writing style is also very good. Anyway, I highly recommend it! ! !
The author's writing style is very special and profound, and reading it is like watching an art film. The characters in the book all have their own unique souls, and it is not a cookie-cutter novel. I like what the author said very much. Everyone in the book is a protagonist and an independent individual. This is a very good novel that I think.
I came in based on the introduction and finished it in one night. I can only say that it was very enjoyable. The author's writing style is also very good. I like it very much. I will read all the author's other works [send heart][send heart][send heart][send heart][send heart][send heart][send heart][send heart]
The writing is very, very good, the beautiful vocabulary dazzled me, and the friendship between the girls is really enjoyable to watch. And the characters are also very well-shaped [send my heart] [send my heart]
The author describes the character's heart and growth very delicately. Chen Muqing is pure and easy to understand😭. The reason for the lack of heart is because there are too many obscure words in it, which affects the perception a bit, but overall it is still good.
It's so beautiful. The writing is very delicate. It's a very real crush. It reminds me of my high school experience. I recommend it😻😻😻
I feel so sorry for Shi Miao. I rushed to write a review before I finished reading. Really, I just want more people to love Shi Miao. She is so bitter. I can't help but feel sour in my heart when I see those words. I hope she is happy and doesn't suffer anymore. Miaomiao wants to be happy, always happy. Chen Muqing, you will be very happy when you see the dimness of happiness. I hope you will be equally happy in another world.
[2023.1.22 It's the early morning of the Spring Festival in 2023. He jumped with me from the year I was eighteen to the year I was nineteen. The change of time seems to be a "click". Although there is a distance of 1,484 kilometers across the screen, I can't see his face and I'm not by his side, I feel so touched to be able to watch a movie with him that I'm quite happy with. Secret love is so painful, but if he takes one step closer to me, he will fall into the pure land of happiness. " [2023.8.22 I don't know how long I will keep this secret of liking you. I want to hold your hand and hug you. And I hope you can just turn your back to me and let me look at your back. Because as soon as I meet you face to face, the first thing I want to do is to run away. " ——"Astringent Pear" February 22, 2026 Ershiliu
There is not much to say except that the author's writing style is delicate and his emotions are sincere. I give this book five stars and wish the author happiness every day and smooth sailing.
I have to give a good review for the writing style and the portrayal of the protagonist in this bookJ (It's really relatable) Although there are not many chapters, the writing style is delicate and a bit profound. In short, the story is good and the characters are very three-dimensional. Highly recommended!
The best Chen Muqing
Super beautiful article, only those who have had a crush can understand it😭😭😭
Very good looking very good looking
It's beautiful, the author's writing is very good
Very nice! The writing is very delicate!