I Want to Show Off, but Everyone Can See the Barrage

[Raising cubs + barrage + funny + no cp text + young male protagonist's perspective] Xu Mingzhe, who successfully killed himself twice, was forced to take the involution gene by Po Meng So in this life, he just wanted to be a salty fish waiting to die. But when he followed his salty fish plan and wanted to step away from the center of power step by step, no one told him why someone from the future who did not respect martial ethics would put the system on him. "Help, I just want to be ruined in this life!!!" It's the first time I've written about cutting my own legs, so I'm asking for a light comment [Barrage setting: Only people who have left their names in history and have a goodwill value greater than 30 can see it, so many common people and corrupt officials or petty officials cannot see the barrage]