[Thoughtful, well-behaved girl VS bad-boy heartthrob] [When the clouds part, you are the light] [School life + city life + secret crush + reunion] [The pacing is a little slow]
That summer, Lin Shijin had already given up hope of getting into the high school she’d always dreamed of. Then, against all odds, she got in. She thought high school would be quiet and uneventful, but in her second year, she fell hopelessly in love with Shen Xi’an.
But after Shen Xi’an went to university, he vanished without a trace. No one knew where he had gone. In the end, Lin Shijin never found the courage to send the love letter she had kept for two years. On the day the gaokao ended, she broke down and cried.
When she was grown up, someone asked Lin Shijin, “What is it like to have a secret crush?” She thought it was like a pane of glass, forever reflecting his image. It was wanting desperately to become a better version of yourself, wanting to get a little closer to his name, watching him slowly fill every page of your rough notes.
Thankfully, a secret crush is silent. Otherwise, it would be deafening.
Or perhaps Heaven couldn’t bear to see how much she had given. Just when she thought she would never see him again, he suddenly appeared before Lin Shijin, and her eyes instantly reddened. Later, one day, Shen Xi’an accidentally knocked over a long-forgotten box. Inside was nothing but all the love she had for him. He sat on the floor for a long time, reading through, one by one, the girlish thoughts she had kept, all of them about him. “I thought I’d met my moon that day, but it turned out to be a streetlamp, one that only lit my way for a little while.”
Shen Xi’an’s tears fell onto the paper, blurring the writing, but he still replied, “Moon or streetlamp, from now on, I’ll be the light that shines on you forever.”
*This story is dedicated to saying goodbye to the youth we are destined to leave behind.
