I've Been Secretly in Love for Two Lives, I Ran Away

Inside the door was a drugged woman, and I held his sleeve tightly. "Please, don't go in, okay?" Prince Regent Shen Jibai paused while pushing the door open, then lowered his eyes to look at me. The wooden door creaked and closed slowly. I laughed silently and cried. It has been three years since I was reborn. Why am I still living like a joke?