I have always lived a step-by-step life with varying degrees of intensity. However, due to this accident, I suffered a fracture after falling down the stairs and a 12-section crush fracture of my spine. I considered over and over again and chose conservative treatment despite the objections of my family, which meant that I decided to start absolute bed rest. It was also an acceptance of earth-shaking changes. At the beginning of my life, nearly fifty years old, it seems that it should be a rebirth, a lucky survival, and a new beginning. I have overturned all my previous abilities and beliefs, I have changed all my cognitions and determinations, and I have accepted all the unacceptable. It is really difficult, difficult, difficult, and painful! Today is the sixteenth day. The long time is slowly dragging me down, leaving no trace but still, everything is devastated...
