Emerald Fruit Tree

He was like a beam of light that warmed me throughout my school days. He pulled me out of the darkness and stood in the sun to feel the temperature of the wind. I don't know if I overestimated him or thought too highly of myself. I actually think that we can go together for a long, long time. I actually think that I can have a mutual redemption of youth with him. He died at the peak of our love, in the year when he could witness us. He is worthy of who he is. He hid it deep enough that I didn't notice anything. Or maybe, I didn't love him enough and I didn't even notice anything wrong with him. Does this prove that I don't love him that much? Maybe I was addicted to the sweet paradise he brought me and forgot that he was not the real "heaven". I regarded him as my spiritual support, but I forgot that the beam will eventually be broken by insects and ants, not to mention that he is only a mortal body? I can't imagine my future without him. What will my ending be like? Maybe I will choose to continue my struggle to buy a villa by the sea, bask in the sun, lie on the deck chair, indulge in the fantasy of having him, and meet him again safely. Jiang Zhu, please give me another chance to love you. This time I will take you out of the darkness. ——Yu Qi