I'm Scared, I Just Want to Keep a Low Profile and Be a Human Being

I've traveled through time several times, and every time it's either very painful, or very fast, or it just happens before I can figure out the situation. This is the tenth time, it has been worn again, this time into a book. I had to grow up in a wretched way, and combined with my previous experiences, I would meet an amazing character every time, and then I would be stunned. What will happen in the end depends on God.