(This story is a bit weird, outrageous and sad.)
Before he was about to write a suicide note, he unexpectedly discovered a video of his own suicide and six suicide notes addressed to himself. The six different videos recorded the exact same way he committed suicide six times.
He is afraid of losing you and subconsciously even wants to be you.
He couldn't tell whether he was Xia Lin or Xie Xiangnan, but he relied on the memory of those short two years to live as a different person in the past six years.
Xie Xiangnan suddenly woke up from the game room with a cold sweat on his head. He died again and again. Maybe he really couldn't wait for the good result.