I have walked this winding road, occasionally muddy, occasionally warm and sunny, for nearly ten years. From pure materialism to metaphysics at the end of science, I have been broken and reshaped again and again. It's not a cool article, there's very little passion, it's just about showing you my real life. It doesn't count as a group to keep warm, because I also want to leave a souvenir for myself. I just thought that if a few people can feel hope and progress from my words, then I will also feel very happy. For me, this world is still very grateful to be born as a human being.