The World Through the Lens of Mental Illness

(This story has no logic and no rules. It's crazy.) There are many strange things in this world, and there are also things that I can't understand. I am a mentally ill patient, and I live in the Sixth People's Hospital. I am in a high-level position and a key patient in the hospital. Because every time I get sick, someone else dies or I die, although I am rescued every time. My biggest wish in life is to burn down the hospital first in order to save the world when the apocalypse comes.