Eileen Chang: Rose in Loneliness

Zhang Ailing closed her eyes forever. She fell asleep in the cold soil. No one would disturb her tranquility anymore, and she would no longer have to hear the disturbing discussions in the world. Although she was born into a famous family, she still had a difficult life. She wandered on the edge of poverty, disappointment, and loneliness countless times. She was just a woman, longing for someone to truly care for her, love her, respect her, and pamper her. But these were all a luxurious dream. When she woke up from the dream, it was replaced by endless darkness and separation... Now she gave up everything, gave up all the sorrow and regret in the world, and left this world quietly, not wanting to disturb anyone, but gently saying goodbye to this world.

This book gave me a deeper understanding of Zhang Ailing. Her life was like the rose mentioned in the book, lonely and proud. I like the stories she writes. Those delicate emotions remind me of my own relatives and friends, and also allow me to better understand their experiences and feelings. This book is not only an analysis of Zhang Ailing, but also a presentation of that era, making me feel like I was in that prosperous but desolate Shanghai.

Because we understand, we are compassionate. I read an almost identical story in another book. I listened to it twice. The first time I didn't feel much, I just lamented Zhang Ailing's ill-fated fate. This time, I felt a sense of sympathy with her. Without her talent, her fate is not as twists and turns. But his temperament and feelings are similar to those of the outside world. Maybe one day in the future, I will die alone like her.

Zhang Ailing's life was both glorious and tragic. No matter how great a person's achievements are, he cannot avoid old age and illness, and he cannot do without tea, rice, oil and salt. Living in the present is the best. Destiny comes and goes, but in the end it is nothing more than a handful of dust.

Zhang Ailing, a talented, great and tenacious woman. I had only heard of her name before, but after reading this book, I felt more deeply about her ill-fated fate and her sadness and pain. An arrogant and thoughtful woman, after witnessing the failure of her parents' love, still maintains her pursuit of love and just wants to stay with her beloved for the rest of her life. But fate finally played a joke on her, and in the end she left alone in this world that gave her hope and sorrow.

After reading this book, I was stunned and felt indescribably depressed, sad and uncomfortable. I once watched a documentary about Zhang Ailing on Station B. Maybe my feelings were not strong at that time. Zhang Ailing and Sanmao are my favorite and most admired female writers. Before I had an in-depth understanding of Zhang Ailing's family background and growth experience, I only knew that her articles were insightful, sophisticated, and deeply captured human nature. After getting to know her, I felt sorry for her. Although Zhang Ailing was born in a noble family, due to her parents, she lacked love, was indifferent to others, and was proud of herself. Due to lack of love, she cannot believe in love and is afraid of following in the footsteps of her parents. When she encounters love, she is like the dry earth encountering a sweet rain. She frantically flies a moth into the flame and desperately grabs the warm light. I hate Hu Lancheng, but in the end I hurt Zhang Ailing. I once thought: Zhang Ailing is so talented and so appreciated, but she was still hurt by men. People are never satisfied. Zhang Ailing broke up in a decent way, giving all her savings to Hu Lancheng. Some people think that Zhang Ailing is very romantic, but I disagree. First of all, she is cautious about love and even distrustful of it. Maybe her time with Hu Lancheng was too warm and devoted, and her parents had such a profound influence on her that Zhang Ailing, who opposed polygamy, would rather accept Hu Lancheng's new love than break up. When they finally broke up, Zhang was very honorable and gave all his savings to Hu to help Hu tide over the difficulties, which shows that Zhang is very affectionate, generous and thorough. Zhang Ailing spent her whole life looking for warmth and a place she could rely on. After experiencing a brief relationship with Hu Lancheng, I feel that Zhang Ailing is more cautious about love. Later she met Sang Hu. She loved clothes so much that she didn't care about other people's strange looks when she walked on the street in fancy clothes, but she actually cared very much about Sang Hu's eyes. Love can make people brave, and it can also make proud people bow their heads. The appearance of Lai Ya allowed Zhang Ailing to truly have a home and feel the warmth of home. She had been wandering for half her life and finally landed. After eleven years together, Laiya passed away and she became a different person again. Even though she is alone again, I believe this time, her heart is warm and there was once a man who gave her true love. There were several major turning points in her life: at the age of four, in Hong Kong, meeting Hu Lancheng, and marrying Lai Ya. When I saw the end, I also wanted to say: "God, why did you treat Zhang Ailing like this?" The relationship was not going well, and the career was not going well either. Maybe the heavens gave Eileen Chang a good family background and literary talent, so her life was so bumpy and tortured. But in this case, God, you are so cruel!

After reading Zhang Ailing's life, I suddenly thought of Huang Yimei - a rose. Their emotional experiences are somewhat similar, but Zhang Ailing seems to be more pitiful. To describe Zhang Ailing, I think of one word: body and mind complement each other. No one is perfect, there are always some flaws, but your flaws in one aspect will compensate you in another way. For example, a blind person cannot see, but his ears are extremely sensitive. Zhang Ailing's life and love may make people feel a little bad, but it is impossible not to recognize her achievements in literature. (Although I have not read a book by Eileen Chang) I remembered another sentence, I don't know who said it: Love is everything to a woman, but it is a part of a man's life, which shows the difference between women and men in their treatment of love. I advise all girls to love themselves first before loving others. Zhang Ailing takes every job seriously, but the ending every time is unsatisfactory, as if God is deliberately teasing her. It is these experiences that made Zhang Ailing a star in the literary world. A blessing in disguise is a blessing in disguise. In the end, Zhang Ailing died alone in her later years. She died in her apartment a week before she was discovered and her ashes were scattered into the sea by her friends!

When I read Zhang Ailing before, I just thought she was a rebellious woman who went her own way. Now when I read Zhang Ailing, I think she is a lonely rose in the corner, blooming brightly but silently, not wanting to be known, but the darkness cannot block her radiance. She was born into a noble family, but was abandoned and trampled upon by the nobles. She always had a spirit of resistance in her bones. She never bowed to fate or surrendered to the world. She was who she was, a strong and brave woman, a self-reliant and maverick woman.

Well, there was no such thing as love brain at that time. Zhang Ailing is Zhang Ailing. Maybe if she loves one less person and loves one more person in this life, her life trajectory will change, so it is all doomed. She accommodated the man to this point, but the man he fell in love with could not provide him with material needs. Is it just a soul-spiritual exchange? Can love be used as food? She had to endure so much hardship. Originally, she could have made herself comfortable with food and clothing, but she gave her savings to men again and again. I really admire her courage.

Although she was born into a famous family, she still had a difficult life. She wandered on the edge of poverty, disappointment, and loneliness countless times. She was just a woman, longing for someone to truly care for her, love her, respect her, and pamper her. But these were all a luxurious dream. When she woke up from the dream, it was replaced by endless darkness and separation... Now she gave up everything, gave up all the sorrow and regret in the world, and left this world quietly, not wanting to disturb anyone, but gently saying goodbye to this world.

After reading this book as a whole, I discovered a problem. The book is full of the author's philosophical reflections, life reflections and subjective comments, and it takes up a lot of space. As a result, when I wanted to understand Zhang Ailing, it seemed like I was reading prose. Generally speaking, the historical value of this book is not high, but the literary value is okay.

Zhang Ailing has a feeling of sympathy for each other. She is indifferent to the world's love and hate, and only wants to embrace loneliness. After her death, her ashes just want to drift away. She is destined to have no destination, and she has no ties to the world she has been in. She becomes a wild ghost and quietly looks down on it.

This book tells the story of the ups and downs of Zhang Ailing, a talented woman of a generation. Life always has its joys and sorrows, the flowers will eventually fall and everything will become ordinary. A person will experience many things in his life. Things may be difficult at this time, but after passing this hurdle, you will find that this difficulty is nothing more than that. The only one who can accompany you to the end is yourself. On the long road of life, everyone you meet is just a passerby. Loving yourself is a lifelong issue. When you love anyone, you must not forget your own bottom line. A good relationship must tolerate each other, take care of each other, and grow together.

One thing that makes me regretful is that the writer Zhang Ailing lived a lonely life without leaving any blood. Her true love is almost impossible now. I have given everything for love, never regretted it, never hated it, and still love as always. An amazing writer who started publishing articles at the age of twelve. She is a genius, but fate opens a window and closes a door at the same time. Her fate is so bumpy. I hope she will be loved by someone in another world, the kind that will never leave her, and will no longer be alone.

The more cold people feel, the more they yearn for the love of others, especially when it comes to the expectations and hopes of love. The missing part of father's love is often made up for in a lifetime of searching, but it seems that the warmth and coldness of the world are all experienced by oneself in the end. She should treat herself better, why bother giving all her money to those men? Isn't it better to live a more nourishing life than anything else?

I have always wanted to know more about Zhang Ailing. This book presented her life to me and allowed me to see that she not only had glory but was also a strong woman who could contend with real life. I admire her very much.

I almost finished reading this book in one sitting. After reading it, I felt a little bit sad and couldn't calm down for a long time. Zhang Ailing, a legendary woman, experienced troubled times, had an unfortunate childhood, and encountered rough love. All experiences have been turned into material for writing, and his literary talent is admirable.

Her life is so exciting, with the attributes of a novel, but she also reveals her unwillingness at every turn. She was born into a famous family, but had a bad fate. She also glimpsed the life of ordinary people like us, confused and lonely. She has her talent to accompany her, what about me? What I do for a living is probably all I have left is loneliness and confusion!

I think this book is very well written. I like Zhang Ailing's character very much. It is what I have always longed for and longed for. Maybe it is because there are people who love her around that give her enough security to show a character like hers. It's really good.

I read Zhang Ailing's legendary life in one go and was impressed by her unruly character.

Perhaps due to the age gap, I sometimes disagree with Eileen Chang's behavior and thoughts. It's also because I read the books in the wrong order. This book is about her. I should read her books first and then look at her as a person🤔 I'll come back after I've finished reading her works. Leave a comment and mark it.

In the past, I had only heard Zhang Ailing's original voice about an unhappy family and a bumpy road to love. After reading this book, I found that her family was indeed not good. Although her feelings were also affected by her family and she lacked love, I didn't understand her view of love. And later I found out that she felt at ease after being Hu Lancheng's lover. She seemed to me like a little woman who longed to be loved!

This book records Zhang Ailing's life, from birth to death, she experienced disappointment, pain and despair, as well as love and betrayal. I sympathize with and admire her very much. After reading this book, I learned that when I meet a scumbag, I have to leave decisively, and I can't be nostalgic even if my three views are not in harmony.

After reading this book in one sitting, I realized that a literary giant who has influenced China for more than half a century has spent her whole life pursuing the love in her heart with sincerity, but love is such a luxury for her. From her mother's departure from childhood, her father's repeated concubinage, her three love affairs in adulthood, to her death alone in old age, she is always looking for the love in her heart. But Eileen Chang has a very fulfilling spiritual world and has been wandering in the literary world. She is so real and tragic.

Zhang Ailing has entered modern society and is still a rare strong and sincere woman in the world. There are many valuable qualities worth learning! For example, when facing loneliness and embarrassment in life, you are still looking for a way out and will not rely on anyone. It is difficult to clearly know who you are and what you want, but opportunities are around the corner, so go out and see the world more often.

Thank you for reading such an excellent book about women's literature. I can draw a lot of positive energy from it. Girls should live like Ai Ling, dare to love and hate, live freely and freely, have their own way of life, be independent, and be a person who never forgets their original intention.

Although she was born into a famous family, she still had a difficult life. She wandered on the edge of poverty, disappointment, and loneliness countless times. She was just a woman, longing for someone to truly care for her, love her, respect her, and pamper her. But these were all a luxurious dream. When she woke up from the dream, it was replaced by endless darkness and separation... The inexplicable sadness felt after reading the whole book may also reflect the title of the book Rose in Loneliness.

Zhang Ailing's life can be said to be ill-fated. I don't understand his concept of love, but it is inseparable from her original family. She has not been able to feel much family warmth since she was a child. She longs to be loved, but she has been strong all her life and is still alone in the end. How I hope she can have a happy family in the end.

The first time I came into contact with Zhang Ailing, a baby was born with a golden key in her mouth. However, her life has been so thorny and difficult. Her persistence in literature, the overthrow of love, and her dependence and indifference on family affection formed such a Zhang Ailing. Faced with the fact that the works she wrote were not appreciated and published, she was not discouraged. She still loved literature. Even when she was old and inconvenient, she continued to study "A Dream of Red Mansions", continued to complete her autobiography, and continued to organize her works before leaving... After facing many disappointments, she still believed in love as always and devoted all her strength to loving someone. Zhang Ailing has profound attainments in literature, and therefore has made a significant mark in the history of literature. It is also a colorful woman like her who has created many good works and articles that will be read by future generations!

This book uses delicate writing to outline Zhang Ailing's complete life trajectory, from the childhood of a declining aristocrat to the amazing rise of the Shanghai literary world, and then to the lonely ending of wandering in a foreign land in her later years. It is not overly sensational, but every word is heart-breaking. It completely broke the stereotype of Zhang Ailing as "cold and aloof", and I understood that her loneliness was never a deliberate alienation, but a destiny engraved in her life.