Life is a practice of ideological and moral character! In this diary, I reflect on my half-life experience at the darkest moment. The source of everything is my own obsession and a manifestation of my own lack of inner strength. In the process of helping each other and healing together, we finally find the inner strong self and the mission we should have! Like light workers, we have experienced nine reincarnations. This may be our last life. We are just the transmitters of high-dimensional channels. We hope that all sentient beings will awaken and no longer become the puppets of the five poisons. We will live for more than 30,000 days and experience the pure and sincere world we hope for, instead of destroying it! May our kindness not be let down by this world.