This is the first novel that I have hesitated to write for a long time. I always feel that I am not ready, but I want to present to you a boy and girl who belong to youth in my mind. Lin Fengyin has a seemingly meek personality, but has strong opinions and ideas. Chen Boran is a clean and cheerful big boy, kind and loving. They met at a school celebration program, but also began a bumpy emotional journey. Wu Jieyi's constant bullying and humiliation made Lin Fengyin unbearable. Chen Boran wanted to protect Fengyin with all his strength, but found that Fengyin had given up, so they began their 10-year sadomasochism (I feel that I have dug a big hole for myself, but I still want to try it, I hope everyone will not step on it)