In the past, I was devoted to the Tao and disdained others to praise my appearance.
But who would have thought that now this body would be the only thing available to me?
I smiled sadly, washed my face, and suddenly overturned the copper basin. Water droplets splashed everywhere, and the copperware hit the ground with a loud sound. I held on to the table and breathed heavily, but I could not drive away the humiliation of the Israeli waiter.
None of the men are good, one, two, three...
Bully me, humiliate me, treat me as a plaything
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Heaven and earth are unkind, treating all things as stupid dogs
It will take your reincarnations (this life and the next) to wash away all the shame I suffered.
Sadomasochism/multiple men/hardcore/vulnerable/
