Where Your Heart Leads

The man I love is the notorious villainous official at court.

One careless moment, and I offended him.

A high-ranking official’s code of conduct: drinking at a brothel is a trivial matter. The hard part is drinking and enjoying the company, then leaving before dawn.

Every day, he murmured in my ear, “Weizhi, stay with me. I’ll protect you and make sure you live your whole life in safety!”

I believed him. Only in the end did I realize that everything he did was simply what a villainous official was supposed to do.

Because of him, the people around me left me one by one. Yet he told me, “When people have you under their feet, you’ll never have the right to draw your blade.”

Have you ever felt this way? You know what you’re doing is wrong, but you have no choice but to do it. The pain of having your heart and bones carved away day after day, nearly destroying you.

There are too many reasons two people can’t be together. There are just as many reasons they can.

There are no true villains in this world. There is only the heart’s desire.

Good and evil, right and wrong, have never been absolute.

I came to understand that later. What looked like plotting and scheming, no matter the means, all came from the deepest tenderness in the heart.