After losing, I firmly believe that I can regain it, and after crying, I firmly believe that I can smile again, but I forgot that there must be a sufficient reason for all this, and I must love myself enough, but I hate myself more and more.
Xu Jin is an angel, but he always wears a devil's mask; and I am a devil, but I wear an angel's mask.
I love Xu Jin. This is no secret. I think we are the same, yearning for heaven. In that black summer, we met, fell deeply in love, and then lost...
I don't know if that is considered a loss. Is the person who disappears without having it considered a loss?
———Excerpted from Mo Geling's blog "I'm on the Run". Completed
