If There Is an Afterlife, It Will Be Determined. . .

I am thirty years old, and I still work exhaustingly every day, like a headless fly with no goals. I feel that my life is very sad. I went back to the dormitory and took a shower and lay on the bed, recalling every period of the past thirty years. I felt that every wrong choice brought me closer to where I am today. I thought, if I was given another chance, what would my life be like? I fell asleep thinking about it, and when I woke up the next day, I was shocked and said, "Fuck, what is going on?". . . . This novel and its characters are purely fictitious. Any similarity is purely coincidental and should not be imitated.