My Apocalyptic Disaster Movies Are Not in Vain

Suddenly I found that the movies I watched before were reflected in reality. Day by day, I felt more and more that the world was no longer real and life had no meaning. But that strong feeling of uneasiness lingered. Until that day I met someone and she said don't go out tonight. With a series of knocks on the door, I opened the door that I was warned not to open. I think my world began to move in a new direction from that moment on. Sometimes I still wonder if one day I had not opened the door that I was warned not to open, would my world magically move forward along the original track, get married and have children, live old, sick, and die? It would not be bad to think about that kind of life. But I will still go and open the door. I have repeated the life that I can see to the end many, many times in my fantasy. For someone like me who does not believe in the afterlife, my soul is always wrapped in an empty sense of nothingness and a viscous liquid. I long for a feeling of breaking out of the cocoon and being reborn, even if it is as fleeting as cherry blossoms. This novel and its characters are purely fictitious. Any similarity is purely coincidental and should not be imitated.