Survival in the Elevator, I Don't Have Any Plug-Ins, I Just Rely on Recklessness

If you hate the Japanese, I understand. You have to write the novel as a romantic drama. For a woman you don't know, you have done so many things just because of her death. It's as deep as your hatred. How can you be so compassionate and turn a deaf ear when you hear a little Chinese girl cry? Isn't this contradictory? Does the protagonist have a split personality? On the one hand, you indirectly killed a little girl for yourself, and on the other hand, you were in agony because two people who had nothing to do with you killed each other. The split personality is not as serious as yours, right? Fortunately, he is a eunuch, otherwise how could I write this like??