I Will Have No Regrets Even If I Live a Rough Life Like This

If I say that if I leave, will you cry and be sad and desperately look for me? Time has not waited for me, it was you who forgot to take me away. I can never forget the fireflies in my left hand, and in my right hand is a long meditation of ten years. Goodbye, Yu Qiubai, I hope we can meet again in the next life. I hope that by then, you will not let me down, and I will naturally do the same. I still remember when I first met you, you said, "My little lady is so delicate and pretty, I'm afraid no one will marry you in the future." I said, "Don't be afraid, I still have you. You will always be by my side, right?" You sighed softly: "Yes, no one wants you, so I reluctantly accepted you." Your eyes were filled with a doting smile. At that time, I was only nine years old, and you were only eleven years old. At that time, we didn't understand what love was in this world. Twenty years later, I truly realized what love is, but by then, it was already too late. Who are you, the pen-tip boy who thinks about you day and night, in the deserted city... This novel and its characters are purely fictitious. Any similarity is purely coincidental and should not be imitated.