Countercurrent in My Heart

I was originally an ordinary junior high school boy who fell in love with my deskmate. He actually chose to go against his nature and bear the debt of a life for this prodigal son. Damn it! Am I worthy of being redeemed after sacrificing myself for love? Or is this guy just pretending to be cute to get my sympathy? What is the purpose of my change in status as a student and a person in society that makes it worthwhile for me to do this? This novel and its characters are purely fictitious. Any similarity is purely coincidental and should not be imitated.