This article is narrated in the first person, and the full text is not large. The protagonist's experience is of a special kind. If you read it carefully, you will find that this article is actually depressing.
Author's thoughts: Sometimes I wonder, why do people live? For blood-related love? ——You can't let go of family affection - so you simply indulge in it - his laughter makes you happy - his applause makes you happy - I should do better; for love? ——This person makes your blood boil. Sometimes you can't even tell whether you love more or hate more; for revenge? ——You live a life worse than death every day - watching him live peacefully as usual - you feel unwilling; for fame and fortune? ——You have spent a lot of effort chasing her. Is there anyone who can take me to the sky? - You sometimes think.
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There are hundreds of wishes, desires, and states in the world. What do you want to achieve?
This novel and its characters are purely fictitious. Any similarity is purely coincidental and should not be imitated.