Lawlessness Leads to Filth

The protagonist is a mentally ill man who harmed his parents because of his mental illness. One day he finally couldn't bear it anymore and wanted to commit suicide, but he was saved by his illness. There is an unknown creature, no, it is not a creature. The protagonist does not even know if he or she has it or it is something else. The protagonist feels scared and happy, and finally he knows that this is not a disease. This novel and its characters are purely fictitious. Any similarity is purely coincidental and should not be imitated.