When Nabokov wrote about Mashenka, he believed that people who create for the first time write their own experiences into their works so that they can get rid of themselves and engage in better things.
In the past few decades, I have been lost in many obsessions and illusions from which I could not return after failing to explore the truth. Now I try to step out of inquiry and see first. As Wang Xiaobo said in the silent majority, "I started too late, and I probably won't be able to accomplish anything, but I still have to state my attitude."
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This kind of seeing does not mean that I can get rid of myself, but it does not prevent me from writing it down. I accept the general rules as a memorial.
This novel and its characters are purely fictitious. Any similarity is purely coincidental and should not be imitated.
