We are destined to spend this life alone. Don't ask why, because that's just how people are. It's not me that's hard to reach, it's my soul. I couldn't explain my inner world to anyone, not even myself. It is difficult for the work to touch upon the happiness surrounding the protagonist, who is the author himself. Understand that short-term happiness is just another abyss.
This novel and its characters are purely fictitious. Any similarity is purely coincidental and should not be imitated.