Extreme Luck and Heavenly Way

Would you make a big sacrifice for a stranger? I must have done it before. Because of this, my life has been turned into a mess. I also cursed myself for being a wretch but insisting on trying to be that bad good person. Maybe it's because of the meaningless reputation, maybe it's my soft heart. "There are two ways in which people deserve to die: pity those who are better off than you; pity those who are out to harm you." I've had enough of my stupid self, this time I have to live for myself! … Okay, enough of the rhetoric. How to solve this fatal situation before us? In addition, my sins will at least make me suffer torture in hell for tens of thousands of years. Doing good deeds and accumulating merit will last for many years and months. I won't be able to get rid of it even after old age and death. The only way out seems to be to live longer and live longer. As long as I am still alive, no matter how cruel the punishment of hell is, what can he do to me? This novel and its characters are purely fictitious. Any similarity is purely coincidental and should not be imitated.