What kind of words do great writers think are powerful? Real. Why do you need to be a daycare teacher? Which child care teacher has as much experience as you? You are charming and suave enough, just show your true colors and continue to act like you understand. The plot is not judged by whether it is weird or not. As long as it is true, it will be infectious no matter how bizarre it is. It's fake. No matter how reasonable your conception is, it has no power. Why are the things you tried to write so ineffective? Because what you write about is something you have never experienced before.
This novel and its characters are purely fictitious. Any similarity is purely coincidental and should not be imitated.