The Life of the Despised Matsuko

At first, Songzi was really angry. How could there be such a stupid woman in the world? A student sleeps with the principal before going on a further study trip; actually steals other people's money and becomes a scapegoat; actually loves a man who asks him to be a lady; actually becomes someone else's mistress and is so stupid that he can't see that he is being played; actually falls into a prostitute; actually gets cheated by a pretty boy; actually takes drugs and kills people... Etc., Etc., Etc., These things are unbelievable to us, things that are impossible to choose. This pine nut is too stupid and stupid! However, Songzi's IQ is not low. She has achieved excellent results since she was a child and graduated from a national university. She is smart, capable and dexterous. She can devote herself to any job and do well in it. In real life, no one would be fond of such a person. At the end, the idea that she was stupid and stupid no longer existed. I felt a little pity for her and also liked her a little. Time and time again, she pushed herself to the point of no retreat, but through her own efforts, she quickly came back to life. Really awesome. Maybe it's because of my God's perspective that I think she's stupid. In reality, I always do a lot of things that I don't know, such as being unable to let go of a boyfriend who is not suitable for me, not studying hard and always feeling that I have a bright future. In other people's eyes, I'm stupid, I'm hesitant about things that don't require me to make a choice... Well, in reality, I might be in a much worse situation than she is, because I'm not as smart, beautiful, and calm as she is. PS: There are so many men in Songzi's life, who does she love the most? I personally think she loves every one of them. As long as you meet someone who lacks love and longs for love like this, you will love with all your strength...

The book has a strong sense of logic and uses a cross-narrative from the perspectives of Songzi and his nephew Sheng. It is not only clear in structure, but also full of suspense. This book is somewhat similar to Disqualification in the World, both of which tell the story of a person who abandons his own personality to please others. Although they both have pleasing personalities, the two protagonists are different. The protagonist Ye Zang, who is unqualified in the world, has resented humans since he was a child and feels that humans are not a good thing. However, he is afraid of being discovered, so he can only dress up as a clown to make people laugh, and slowly loses his personality. But Songzi's path to please is different. Many people say that Songzi is stupid or that he has a holy mother's heart, but this is not the case. Songzi is a sensitive and fragile person with empathy. He can always be keenly aware of or think he is aware of other people's inner thoughts. Songzi is very considerate of others, but will always deliberately ignore her own needs and ideas, fearing that she will cause trouble for others, lacking bottom lines and principles, and is very tolerant or unaware of others' objectively "violating" behavior towards her. Because his own self-boundaries are blurred, he often takes it for granted that others have no boundaries like him. On Matsuko's first school trip, I wonder if there is really only one room left, or are Tadokoro and Ide singing a double act? I think the most important reason why Songzi is willing to be in the same room as Tianshuo is that Songzi respects him. The book also compares the principal with his father. No one would have thought that such a beast would happen. Tianshuo is well-dressed on the surface, but behind his back he has a human face and an animal heart. Songzi was quite flustered when faced with this series of events. After all, she had little experience and had never encountered this kind of thing before. She believed Tian Suo's one-sided words and stopped pursuing the matter. On the other hand, she was afraid that the scandal would be spread and she would be the one to be embarrassed. Songzi always has a flaw in how he handles problems, and he made the same mistake during his second school trip. The hotel was robbed, and everyone unanimously suspected Long Yangyi. On the one hand, Songzi felt that it was not him, and on the other hand, he had doubts about Long Yangyi. When Long Yangyi was questioned, Long Yangyi also refused to answer sensitively. At this time, Songzi had to believe that Long Yangyi had stolen the money because other teachers said so and Long Yangyi's performance. But the problem was that it was just everyone's speculation, but it became Matsuko's confirmation that he planned to help Ryu Yangichi pay back the money first and take responsibility for Ryu Yoichi. If the money was not enough, he would misappropriate Mr. Ito's money and thought of borrowing money from home to make up for it. The plan was originally perfect. A dramatic scene happened, but Ito was not told, and the money was not returned in time. After the incident, it was unclear. No one would pay unconditionally for another person for no reason. If there is such a person, it is Matsuko. Songzi also wanted Long Yang to tell the truth clearly, but instead of telling him clearly, he said that Songzi forced him to admit it through coercion and inducement. Because of this, Songzi was fired and had a falling out with her family. After running away from home, her father died three months later. Her younger sister suffered from a nervous breakdown. Her mother was too overworked and too old. Her younger brother also developed a sense of resentment towards Songzi because of this. During the period when he ran away from home, he met Tetsuya, a frustrated writer, who would beat and scold Matsuko from time to time. However, Tetsuya was fragile inside and liked to see Osamu Dazai disqualified in the world. Tetsuya felt that he was the reincarnation of Osamu Dazai. Perhaps Matsuko felt that Tetsuya's scars were the same as hers and helped Tetsuya at all costs, even if it meant selling himself. The two comforted each other in the small room. Tetsuya committed suicide not long after, and Matsuko often missed him in his later life, which shows how much Tetsuya had an impact on Matsuko. While accompanying Tetsuya, she had an affair with Tetsuya's good friend Okano. Even though she learned that the other person had a family, she didn't think it mattered much. Perhaps in her eyes, as long as someone could give her love, it was more important than anything else, so she was naturally abandoned ruthlessly. After that, I kept looking for love and being abandoned again and again. It was really lackluster. There wasn't much worth talking about. Each time it got worse and worse, including selling myself, taking drugs, killing people, going to jail, etc. It is worth mentioning that the love he had with Long Yangyi was great. They should have been together, but they could not be together because of many obstacles, either due to constraints or respect. No matter what the reason was, it was fortunate that Long Yangyi met the teacher he had admired since childhood in his best years, stayed with her for a while, and killed Tian Suo who tried to taint her. Isn't this kind of love unique? It's also like a repayment of love. Taking responsibility for Long Yangyi in the past led to a relationship later. I just don't know if it was fate or intentional? This Matsuko, who was called by his younger brother Norio, "will cause trouble to his family even before he dies", has pleased so many men in his life: Tadokoro, Saeki, Tetsuya, Okano, Akagi, Onodera, Shimazu, Ayo, Norio, and Dad. It seems that she is constantly dependent on men, has no sense of independence, and is obsessed with it and leads to destruction. In fact, the character of Matsuko is not likable in itself. The origin of this pleaser personality is not without reason. She has worked hard to study since she was a child, not for herself, but for her father. She believes that being recognized and praised by her father is her biggest motivation. She always thinks that it was Kumi who deprived her of her father's love after she became ill. This idea is absurd, but from her inner thoughts, it can be seen that Matsuko is a person who has lacked care since she was a child, but often does not receive care. She wants to arouse a certain amount of care by pleasing others. The fundamental reason for all the pleasing behaviors of pleasers is the inner emptiness and lack. They cannot provide for themselves, so they have to constantly seek attention and appreciation from the outside world to fill it. When Matsuko returned home again to repay Norio, she unexpectedly saw her father's diary. The diary stated that after she left, he talked about her every day. How could he say he lacked love? Even when Jiumei learned that she was back, she still expressed a warm welcome, as if Songzi's criticism of her in the past was completely gone, but Songzi still gave Jiumei a hard push. Are she still brooding about what happened before? Or do you simply not feel the love given by your family? But she complained that Jiumei had deprived her of her father's love for her. It was really sad, but it also revealed a kind of pity. It is wrong to look at this character from God's perspective. We all know that it is wrong to please others, but she may not know it herself. Everyone's perception of society is different, and their understanding is naturally different. It is precisely the authorities who are confused, but those who watch clearly. Remember what The Great Gatsby said: Whenever you want to criticize anyone, you have to remember that not everyone in the world has had the advantages you have. If you want to change your pleasing personality, I think you need to constantly enrich your inner self, feel your true self, work hard to improve yourself, and switch your perspective from the outside world to yourself, and you will be completely new. Don't blindly love someone or follow someone because you desire love. Real love is based on equality. If one party is too dependent, one party is too obedient, and one party is too afraid of losing, and then blindly follow, bad things will follow. This is not love, this is pain, and it is pain created by yourself. Compared with Ye Zang, who is disqualified from the world, the image of Songzi is more realistic. Of course, the writing styles of the two books are also different. The former focuses on Ye Zang's heart, while the latter focuses more on Songzi's entanglement and pursuit of love around a series of events. Although Songzi had a rough life, she was legendary. She was loved by different men and could quickly learn different talents. But she didn't know if this luck could replace her inner misfortune. Her life was an absurd life and a life of failure, but it was also a life of never giving up hope and a life lived seriously. Finally, Songzi goes to heaven, perhaps only there can he find eternal love.

In my opinion, as long as someone can give me love, it is more important than anything else. I long for love and someone to accompany me, so I can fall in love with others just as easily as she does. As long as others show a little care, I will be able to do whatever it takes. We always keep asking about the three words in a man's mouth. We will feel safe only after getting "I love you" from their mouth, even if it is a lie.

Songzi, who lacks love, has been pursuing true love all his life. He loves others more than himself. He is afraid of losing love. He has been hurt to pieces by eight men. He is full of hope and despairs of life again and again. At the end of the book, Matsuko's roar is very heartbreaking: Tadokoro, why do you want to molest me? Why did you kick me out of school? Saeki, why don't you protect me? Tetsuya, why don't you take me away? Okano, why are you playing with me? Akagi, why do you court me without understanding? Ayano-san, why are you unhappy? Onodera, why did you betray me? Shimazu, why didn't you wait for me? Ah Hui, why did you give up on me? Ayang, why did you leave me behind? Mom and Dad, why don't you love me? Norio, why don't you forgive me? Jiumei, why do you want to die? A rough review. I hope more book friends will share their profound insights into this book.

The case itself is not complicated, let alone important. It is just a clue that runs through the entire book. It serves as an introduction to the life of Aunt Songzi, allowing the reader to build a deep relationship with her aunt while reading, so that at the end, like Asheng, she will be deeply angry at the murderer's perfunctory attitude. Allowing readers to unconsciously establish a deep bond with virtual characters is the charm of this book.

To be honest, the Japanese movie I watched for the first time was Matsuko's Life. At first I was attracted by the title of the disgusted Matsuko's Life and thought it was funny. But when I actually watched it, I couldn't stop crying. When I recalled how Long Yangyi framed her, I was puzzled. She was obviously in love with the teacher, but maybe she was too bright and popular, so Long Yangyi did bad things unconsciously. Songzi's life is full of mistakes. If her father could express his love for her, maybe things would be different. However, Songzi was too young and too emotional. She only saw her father's love for Kumi. After she told Kumei about her love, her father's rebuke made the long-standing resentment in her heart burst out. She fled the house. She thought she was finally free, but she didn't expect that this farewell would mean goodbye to her father forever. Her father was too stubborn, and Songzi was too excited. In the end, the yin and yang were separated, and this can never be undone. But Songzi still believes in love. The words of the writer who had been domestically abusing her, making her a young lady and embarrassing her, when he committed suicide still made her feel that the writer loved her. It can be seen that she is pure and innocent and has a heart that longs for love. That sentence is, I'm so sorry for being born human. Later, writer B abandoned her. After being decadent, he still ran a business with gangsters to survive, but in the end he failed. The man with a haircut whom she met when she was escaping tolerated her and made her believe in love again, but in the end she went to prison, where she also met the only real friend in her life. , That is, the porn boss who found Sheng at the beginning of the movie. She kept her expectations for love in prison and worked hard to learn haircutting, but in the end, the man who got the haircut married a wife and had children. She watched the woman who was not as beautiful as her holding their son happily, and Songzi left the haircutting shop in tears. When she opened a haircut shop in a daze, she met the two most important people in her life. One was an pornographic film boss at the time but now a friend of a singer who wanted to make pornographic films. The other was the student Long Yangyi who she really loved in her life. In order to be with Long Yangyi, she They gave up their friends together, gave up everything, and were even willing to die with him, but Long Yangyi was still cowardly. She never left the disfigured Long Yangyi. It was obviously him who caused her to be framed from the beginning and to be reduced to what she is now! But Songzi still loved, and this time she finally loved him, but in the end Long Yangyi, who thought he was doing Songzi good, still hurt her. Songzi fell in the snow with a ridiculous nosebleed and shed sad tears. This ended her courage to love, and she began to give up on herself. She kept engraved on the wall at the door, "I'm sorry for being born." She used her teenage idol as a support and sent her many years of experience to him, but there was no reply. She gave up on herself day after day. When she went to the hospital for a check-up, she met her friend from back then. She took the business card and threw it away. She regretted it and wanted to start again. With her new life, she picked up the business card and talked to a few children on the way back, but was seriously injured. In the end, she saw her sister's face, she carefully gave her a haircut, and then step by step, she boarded the road to heaven just like she did when she was a child. She passed away. The reason why I gave this work four stars is that it is a translation after all, and maybe some details of the original Japanese work have not been translated. Hey, I watched the movie several times and cried harder every time. I also felt different truths in the movie and in life.

It's strange that after reading this book, I didn't feel that Songzi was a disliked person, nor did I feel that she was a people-pleaser. On the contrary, everyone around her loves her more or less, and she is also a person who gives her best in every relationship. Maybe it's because she loves too much every time, so everything turns out to be the opposite.

The first half was a bit unbearable, how could there be such a stupid woman! The more I read, the more I realize that Songzi is actually a very good, smart, and serious person who is very devoted to every relationship, a little silly in his devotion, but there is nothing wrong with it. Such rich experiences, such an attitude of making money, and so many men and women... Among them there are some people who really love her, but in the end she is still alone. It is really pitiful, so pitiful that she can't cry. Perhaps this is the most appropriate portrayal of the mentality of Japanese women in the Showa period... After reading the book, I went to watch the movie. I unexpectedly found that the movie was adapted very well and lacked a lot of sadness ~ Recommended!

Life is impermanent and unpredictable, and as a human being, I'm sorry.

A country where gangster families can be cleansed and turned into political families! Hehe! The land is too small, the country is too easy, and it is controlled by a small number of people! Democracy? ! It's just the appearance they want you to see!