And I Only Have Me

Actually subjectively... I don't like Shen Xinlu at all. Obviously I already have a piece of happiness in my hands, but in my heart I hope to get another piece of love. It can obviously make two people happy, but it forcefully makes three people suffer. Perhaps this is resentment and love at work. But the past is the past. You shouldn't hate or blame, and naturally you can't forgive. If you fail to come when you are 22 years old, then you should have nothing to do with it after that.

One dormitory, four girls, three tragedies. Perhaps only a person with a calm heart like Chun Mou can have a happy ending. Sometimes, the more you want, the more you lose...

I actually didn't know this book at first, but it existed on the Internet. There is a store in our school with a small shelf like that placed at the door, and this book is inside. I originally bought the book with my best friend. She bought the kind of book that felt respectable. I bought this book. I didn't want to buy it at first because the cover of the book didn't look good. But after reading the introduction, I was swayed. In fact, the price was not particularly expensive, so I bought it as a one-time read. Anyway, I was in the stage of learning about oppression at that time, and I was really moved after reading it. I don't particularly want to say anything about this book. Because I saw someone in the comment area saying that the author is a primary school student. I'm not mocking her, I just think his inspiration, whether it comes from life or from the Internet, is really amazing. I used to have a best friend. When he was in junior high school, he once wrote a novel, which I heard was quite popular, and the principal even mentioned him specifically. But one day he suddenly told me that he no longer wanted to write this novel. But that novel was in the best-selling period. I asked him what was going on, and he told me that the study pressure was too great. Since it was only the first year of junior high school at the time, I said, wasn't it the first year of junior high school? Why is there so much pressure? He said that even though this book was written in the third grade of elementary school, he still felt a lot of pressure. On the one hand, he was responsible for his own studies and his family. His grades were actually among the top 20 in our school. But since writing this novel, I have been wandering around in my thirties and forties. He said that writing novels was just for fun, and he really didn't expect it when it became popular. Moreover, he does not plan to write novels as a way out in the future, and his parents have always been opposed to it. As a parent, I should understand. By the time he was in the second grade of junior high school, he did not finish writing the book, but reprinted it. He said he sold the book to a person. I thought he was very irresponsible at first. He just told me. You will never understand that feeling. Nowadays, most parents feel that their children's grades have fallen behind. The first is mobile phones, the second is novels, and the third is love. Since his grades dropped from the top 20, she really can't stand the disdainful eyes of his parents. She is a person who wants to be strong and face-saving, so since she came back from that winter vacation, he immediately reprinted this book. So I want to say: Regardless of the author of this book or his age, if he brings this book to us, we like to read it, and I think it is fine. There is no need to place too many demands on him. After all, children nowadays are under very, very high pressure no matter what kind of learning pressure they have.

After reading the comments, I felt that the ending was sad. Did the male protagonist die?

Shen Xinlu was swept away by the undercurrent while snorkeling, Peng Xiaoyu decided to marry a person she hated, and Shengxia accidentally killed a life... To them, these things were the whole world, but to others, they were insignificant. People are, after all, born alone.

Until now, I still imagine that Shen Xinlu died just like that. He died because he recognized his own heart. He died because he never dared to try. He died because of everyone's memory. Although there is no follow-up, it seems that she can see Du Siyuan's pain and Gu Xiao's regret. It was almost the same point when she finished the book that day. She was very happy because she finally saw her own heart and thought there would be Easter eggs later. She really didn't expect it, but it was natural. Tragedy is the best evidence to explain grief. She couldn't calm down for a long time. The tears kept flowing and seemed to be unstoppable. I don't plan to stop. I don't know who I'm crying for, or maybe it's for myself. I didn't come here to write a book review until today. Maybe after that point, I won't have any sad emotions, but I still remember it.

Youth is like a song, a dormitory, four girls, a life and love completely different from their dreams, leading them to different destinations, and even falling into irrationality like midsummer. Did you know that youth foresees more than just the future? Shen Xinlu felt that he clearly loved Gu Xiao the most, so how could he really fall in love with Du Siyuan? Because this kind of love is similar to the tranquility of time. The impulse I had back then no longer exists, and it has caused great harm to myself. Why bother. We always meet the wrong person at the wrong time, the right person at the right time, but we have to blame ourselves for never meeting the right person. Whether it's love or time passing by in a hurry, we can't catch it, let alone own it. Our youth has no end.

I don't like this article, and I don't like the heroine either. I have barely finished watching it. The heroine Xiao Lu has such a family, why do you still have to endure it? You are already an adult, why don't you choose to be independent. While you hate this family, you still use the family's living expenses, knowing the faces of your parents and relatives, and still expecting their care. At the beginning of the article, Du Siyuan proposed to you. When Gu Xiao wanted to take you away, you extended your hand (although it didn't happen). Since you love Gu Xiao, why do you still want to be with Du Siyuan? After all, so many years of companionship are still not worth a Gu Xiao. Part of the reason why you want to be with Du Siyuan is because you are greedy for his kindness to you, but your heart is not with her. If you hadn't met Du Siyuan, you would have had no future at all. He brought you help and taught you to grow, but you were just a weak coward. You wanted to die when you were diving. It would be over if you left this world. God heard your call and put you in danger, but at the last moment you realized that you fell in love with Du Siyuan. You have to live, but you are not so lucky. You might as well die. When Tan Tan was raped, what you did surprised me. Not only did you get injured all over your body, you didn't do anything useful at all. You just begged, resented, and hit the bathtub with yourself. There is one more thing you don't like about the article. After a two-year appointment, Gu's mother asked Gu Xiao and Xiao Lu to break up. She called it a test for Xiao Lu and refused to reveal the reason. Moreover, Gu Xiao would be with another girl in the past two years. After two years, she would no longer care about Gu Xiao and Xiao Lu's affairs. Otherwise, she would threaten Xiao Lu's family to break up. Personally I don't like this joke. Gu Xiao, you said you wanted to take Xiao Lu away from that home, but what did you do? Xiao Lu, you said you didn't like this home, but did you resist? You only care about talking about love. Two people who cannot leave home but both want to get rid of it and become independent have no future at all. For Xiaoyu, in order not to owe Wenxu and for Wenxu's good, she did not accept his love. Have you ever thought about what Wenxu has done for you? He has protected you for so long, resisted for you and your family, and just wanted to be with you, but you gave up her for his own good. He did all this because he loved you. How would his future be good without you? And you chose to marry a man you don't like, or even hate, because your parents like him. It's their business if your parents like it, but if you don't, life is both long and short. Why bother giving up the person you love and marrying someone you don't love? It will hurt Wenxu and destroy yourself. For Shengxia, it can be said that she deserved it. For the sake of Guangming, she exhausted her efforts, betrayed her sisters, and did things that she was despised. She also lowered her attitude to the lowest level. She knew clearly that Guangming was a person who had different ideas, but she still persisted in her love for him, and finally killed someone by mistake. You loved the wrong person and used the wrong method. Personal opinion, don't comment if you don't like it.

In fact, everything is like an equation with no solution. After all, there are too few stories of Cinderella and the prince together in real life. Shen Xinlu's death can be a kind of relief or an escape. Or maybe she is not dead, but thankfully, at this moment, she finally understands what she wants.

The heroine is so outrageous, she has no conscience