Colorful Veil

My heroine Katie I really like the heroine Katie. She is cute, lively, beautiful, sincere and never artificial; She is very self-aware and will change her thoughts and behaviors in the direction of her ideals; She is aware of the limitations brought by the environment in which she grew up, so she does not blame herself too much for being vulgar and superficial; She is willing to work hard to adapt to different environments, integrate herself well into them, make herself comfortable in life and gain peace of mind; She is a three-dimensional person, with an imperfect background and moral stains, but she can show the brilliance of humanity in hardship, and she can both reflect on herself and let herself go; She doesn't do everything with ease, but is constantly looking for self-consistent ways to reconcile with herself. Real sense of resonance The reason why it resonates so strongly is because the author's writing style is so delicate, and he can get into Katie's heart, just like he got into mine. Although the content he wrote is subtle, it is real and perceptible. Therefore, when describing Katie's behavior and thinking, it is like writing about the reader's behavior and thinking, making people feel as if Katie is herself, giving a strong sense of immersion. This strong sense of substitution not only allows you to think from Katie's perspective: what would I think and do if I were her; There's another magical effect: what Katie would think and do if she were in the predicament she's currently facing. You seem to have a good friend who can give you advice from another perspective - this perspective comes from a person who has experienced the pain of his original family, the torture of love, and the test of life and death, and has grown up, is brave and sincere. You will feel that you are not alone when facing difficulties, and that Katie is there to help. In other words, there are actually many girls facing similar troubles, and perhaps they can learn from each other's solutions. The epitome and perception of love Girls in this era seem a bit pitiful. They can only use beauty as a bargaining chip to attract rich and powerful men, thereby improving their social status. Katie never had a suitable marriage candidate, so she finally married Walter hastily. This was actually not unfortunate, because she got the opportunity to broaden her horizons. The relationship between Walter and Katie is like the epitome of many loves: one party loves passionately but withholds it, making their relationship full of extreme tension. Derailment seems to be the only way to go. Even if there is no Charlie, someone else will appear, just like the inevitable disaster on the way to the West. This gave Katie the opportunity to look at herself from Walter's perspective and understand Walter's feelings of going through fire and water for love but ultimately gaining nothing. Being able to gain this kind of understanding is also a kind of luck, and the ending of getting nothing is another kind of luck. Since the book is always narrated from Katie's perspective, I have no way of knowing Walter's inner thoughts and can only guess like Katie, which exactly reflects the authenticity of love. In real life, we never have a God's perspective. We can only guess the other person's heart through his words and deeds, but we can never be 100% sure. Therefore, we can only experience it from the perspective of Katie's growth: at first, the perspective is as narrow as a pinhole, and can only see superficial things; later, the perspective gradually expands, and we can see the overall situation. Gradually, we also understand whose love is sincere and whose love is false; whose love is a choice blinded by desire and loneliness, which will gradually fade after the disguise is lifted; whose love can be so real and pure, even if the other person's ordinaryness is clearly seen, it still goes against common sense but follows the true heart. Ordinary people may not have the opportunity to experience such vigorous love and disappointment in a short period of time like Katie, but her concentrated emotional outburst is just an enhanced version of ordinary people's emotions. In the ordinary long-distance love race, we may also be distracted by the sudden appearance of an outstanding member of the opposite sex around us, start to weigh the pros and cons, and subconsciously explore another love possibility. I just hope that before heading towards a new starting point, I can figure out: will this new possibility bring growth and happiness, or will it bring degradation and numbness to novelty? Katie's journey What attracted me most about this book was Katie's growth. Although her growth was forced, and could even be said to be her own fault, most people are like this and cannot completely follow the preset path. When the epidemic was severe, on the eve of Walter's death, Katie opened her heart to him: She knew she was vulgar and superficial, but her upbringing failed to teach her nobility and depth, and she hoped Walter could forgive her. In the days when the environment suddenly deteriorated, she did not blame herself for the impermanence of life. Instead, she built a space for in-depth communication with herself in front of the dreamlike window every day. After reviewing her past mistakes, she will compare herself with the people she meets now who make her feel right or comfortable (such as nuns, deans, and even Walter) to reflect on her own personality flaws and even analyze the environmental causes of these flaws in depth. She also imagined that a powerful white light would completely surround her, and she would no longer have to decide the direction of her life. However, when the abbess told her how she embarked on the ascetic path of a nun, she did not completely fall into the abbot's religious narrative. She knew that she still had expectations of the world and was willing to continue walking on the earthly path, even if she might still make mistakes. I don't know how to describe my praise for her. Perhaps the word "autonomy" is the most appropriate. She is willing to rack her brains to analyze the current situation, even if the analysis is not perfect; she is willing to take responsibility for herself and walk on the road that almost leads to the underworld; she is willing to overcome and forgive her own desires and leave the comfortable but dirty environment... In short, she is willing to take responsibility for her own choices. Don't regret the past too much, don't worry too much about the future, just live well in the present. Reading and reading This book was recommended by Douban friends. I only saw the recommended title, which probably said that girls can watch it, so I didn't read any further. Therefore, I didn't know anything about the plot, and I didn't have a God's perspective. I could only read it step by step from Katie's perspective. This feeling of being spoiler-free was very enjoyable. In the past, after reading a book, I would always feel like I still had something to say, so I would immediately read it and explain it in depth. But after reading it this time, I have a lot of my own feelings. It's like taking a closed-book exam. I express my feelings first and then read other people's explanations, rather than getting a second-hand reading experience first. Although professional book critics can certainly combine the background of the times and conduct a more comprehensive and in-depth analysis from professional perspectives such as psychology, intimacy, feminism, etc., And they will feel happy every time they read it, but they will always be a little empty afterward, because it is not their real thinking, and the resonance generated by other people's professionalism will soon be forgotten. Just like Katie, you still need to communicate more deeply with yourself.