Silent Confession

Marilyn, a white student who is maverick and always wants to compete with the boys, and James, a Chinese professor who suffers from the pain of being "different" form a family. Marilyn was trapped by her family and unable to pursue her ideals, so she transferred her ideals to her daughter Lydia, hoping that she would be different. In order to keep her mother, Lydia silently shouldered her mother's ideals. James also has high hopes for Lydia, hoping that she can blend in with her classmates and that she will not have to bear the same scrutiny that he has endured. On the surface, Lydia is the most beloved child, but in fact, she cannot bear such heavy love. James saw his cowardly self in Nass, so he always had some disgust and avoidance towards him. Nath is Lydia's spiritual support. Only he can understand her, but Nath has always been eager to escape from this family. Hannah is the little daughter who is ignored by everyone. No one cares about her. She sensitively feels the delicate balance of the family and has a strong desire for love. It is precisely because of her sensitivity to love that she is the only one who has seen the most truth and is the first to know what Jack is thinking. Jack has been protecting a tender secret with superficial futility. So many things were wrong. Lydia is the center of the story. She discovered all the wrong starting points, performed a love sacrifice in the moonlight, sank to the bottom of the cold lake, and put everything back on track in a decisive way. All these contradictions originate from love. If you love in the wrong way, you will hurt each other. Fortunately, even if you make an unforgivable mistake, life still has to move forward, and you can only use the remaining time to make up for and remember it.

A very heavy book. Panting until the end, the sun suddenly appeared like a sky covered in dark clouds, which was a relief. The theme of the novel is very realistic, allowing many parents to see themselves reflected in it. In fact, both love and life are simple and pure. If we put too much desire into it, love will deteriorate and life will be tiring and complicated.

Everyone is a story. Just like the game played by the father and Lydia in the book, people often only learn to cherish something after losing it. This book may not just want to criticize people who entrust their dreams to their children, but it tells us to do what we want to do and get to know the people we love well. Silent Confession, through Lydia's death and a series of thoughts and reflections, completed the silent confession of the family to each other. These loves no longer need to be said, there will be no difference, and they will cherish each other. Completed Jack's silent confession to Nath, completed everyone's silent confession, without race or class, and reflected the great love in the world. I wish you all to cherish the people in front of you, walk the road ahead, and love the people you love.

What led to the tragedy was probably the background of the time. The impact of racial discrimination and misogyny on James and Marilyn was too great and too deep. But in the end, the family can understand each other, rely on each other again, and try to live anew. This ending is still very good. The most distressing thing in the whole book is the little daughter

At the beginning of reading the story, I didn't feel that the author's writing style was particularly interesting, but as I read further, I became more impressed. Especially the plot of writing Hannah made me find myself a long time ago, like an invisible person, unnoticed. Maybe many people will have such a period, the spotlight is on others, and I quietly observe from the sidelines. Although I missed the eyes of others, I also saw many things that the authorities could not see, and my understanding of some things became deeper and my understanding became clearer. Even if you were a little lonely during that period, time will eventually bring you out of your transparency, allowing you to show yourself and making you not regret your loneliness. The author is brilliant. Everyone in the book is ourselves, and their lives are also our lives. Lydia is also me, carrying a heavy burden and struggling to move forward, my mother's strictness, my father's cheating. I have seen similar lives, but after all, I will not give up my own personality and desires like Lydia. Just like the author expects, I will be like a person who starts over in Lydia's place and continue to grow under the guidance of my own hopes. The confession is silent, we still love each other in our own difficult lives, understand and tolerate, escape from the mistakes of the past, turn around and embrace, we have another tomorrow, cherish everyone who is still there.

This book suits me very well. It may also be suitable for every lonely person walking in this world. It tells me that everyone is different. It is enough for us to be ourselves seriously and live quietly. Who is not dancing in shackles, who is not living reluctantly, putting on a mask and smiling when forced. Liveliness and happiness can sometimes become troubles, because we often feel lonely, extremely. However, life needs to go on, we just need to tell ourselves that you can be yourself. No one cares about your life, they may not even care about their own. No one knows yourself better than yourself, knows what makes you happy and when you are unhappy. Don't place too much hope on others, but believe in yourself unswervingly. Love yourself.

Silent confession! Forgive my stupidity, I didn't understand the meaning of the book's title until I read it at the end. Confessions came from everyone in the book. When the last straw fell, the voices of confessions screamed to the extreme, and finally I was relieved under countless expectations!

Parents have the greatest influence on their children. Because his father is Chinese, he has been discriminated against by people around him since he was a child. Although he has excellent grades, he is lonely and has low self-esteem. Only through continuous learning can he find that little bit of superiority. He hopes that his children can have a richer life and have their own circle of friends. The second daughter, Lidya, has inherited her mother's genes, which fills their own shortcomings for them, so they put all their energy on Lidya. I hope she can live the way they want her to be, and the gifts they send can tell what they are missing. The disappearance and appearance of her mother brought great trauma to Lydia. She was afraid that her mother would leave again. This fear always surrounded her, so she had to meet all her mother's expectations of her, even if it was not what she wanted. Regarding the invitation from her classmates, her first reaction was that her mother was waiting for me at home, and she was afraid of losing her again. In fact, it can be seen from the full text that the entire atmosphere in this family is extremely depressing. Everyone only considers their own feelings and thoughts, without putting themselves in the other person's shoes. Such a way of getting along will only make each other drift away. Everyone hides their true selves and shows what the other person wants, just like everyone wears a mask, and slowly forgets their original appearance.

I have to admire the author's delicate writing style. Every description is written powerfully into the reader's heart, just like writing an article in the heart, with delicate touch and sharp blade. I was initially attracted to it because of a book review on the cover, intentionally or unintentionally: "We spend our entire lives getting rid of the expectations of others and finding our true selves." This may be something that everyone pursues but cannot obtain, the true self. The powerful resonance tells me that it can help me see something clearly and find what I want in the book. It turned out to be true. Everyone in the book seems to be themselves. As I read it, I felt that every character looked like me - strangely, Lydia who sank to the bottom of the lake was her silent confession. Unfortunately, only after she disappeared did everyone understand her heart. In fact, her original intention was not to abandon her life, but she needed a strong force, a courage she had never had before, to support her to start over and start being herself instead of Lydia in the eyes of others. This mood is easy to understand. Whenever life becomes a mess, there will be a moment when I make up my mind to change. I want to start over. As long as I change, I can get rid of all the messy things from my life. Starting over does not mean that it will come true just like this. In many cases, it is just about obeying reality and giving up the struggle. Changing yourself is a huge and labor-intensive project. The sun will rise tomorrow, so be it. Lydia tried, but no one saw her change, so she wanted to use the quiet lake water to swallow up the sunshine of the night, so that when she emerged from the water, she felt like a different person, no longer the girl who suppressed herself to meet other people's expectations. Maybe this result was not expected, maybe she had been prepared for it, no matter what, she might be relieved. Marilyn is also the epitome of many women. When he was young, he was full of secret yearning for love, holding on to innocent longings and fantasies, and chose the lifestyle he thought was the best. But it is repeated day after day - the alarm clock rings at exactly the same time every day, we get up, cook, cook, and say good night to each other. The sun rises the next day and life remains the same, like a song on a loop. There is a time when a song that is played on loop will tire of it, no matter how much enthusiasm one initially views it with. Marilyn eventually found that she couldn't stand the ordinary, repetitive life written on carbon paper. She wants to run away, eager to get back the passionate expectations she had at the beginning and break the curse of the endless cycle. But she ignored that she was already an indispensable and important part of that kind of life. She had participated in other people's lives that were either passionate or monotonous, and the traces were indelible, deep and shallow. We are always looking for differences - changing our hairstyles, occasionally changing our dressing styles, participating in different activities, making friends with different people... Just to make today different from yesterday. When the same pattern is repeated every day, frustration and loss will give rise to new ideas - go traveling. But often after the period of excitement, there is a return to unruffled silence, with the clock ticking. The best way to get rid of this kind of life is to pursue your innocent dreams while you are still young, and run on the road paved with sweat. Run, leave the whirlpool of circulation far behind, throw away the hands that want to grab you.

Lydia didn't want to commit suicide. She just felt that the dream of carrying her parents was too depressing. The pain of knowing that her father had an affair and the sadness of her brother leaving made her want to be freed. When she figured everything out in the water, when she wanted to be reborn and start a new life, it was already too late. She couldn't swim...