The Year of Transformation

My mood is very complicated now. After reading this novel, I am more determined in my determination. I may escape, or I may make progress, but no matter what, I think it is worthwhile for me to be able to read such a novel and experience such a life. Maybe the power of literature can't let people like me say that. Alas, maybe The power of literature is part of the reason why I am alive today, haha. If I had seen such a novel two years ago, maybe I would be different. Or maybe I should be like this. After reading it, I can really gain power. However, it is too late for such power to appear at this time, but if I think about it carefully, it may not be too late. But, have I overstepped the mark? I asked myself, I live like this because I think everything doesn't matter, but I still hope that I will change in the future, but I feel more and more that I can't accept this society, I should be eliminated, I can't compare to anyone, I am really like this, I am the bottom of the bottom, There is no place for me, I don't want to be like this, I obviously have many opportunities to climb to higher places, but I miss them again and again. I really like this, I didn't realize this kind of like, I am used to it, I, know, but I don't know, so I just Don't think about it, just think about other things, play games, watch movies, go see beautiful women, haha, oh, I really don't want to be like this, I really don't want to be like that, I can't even tell you what I want to be, maybe I want to be someone like Brother Aaron, I have that too I had the opportunity to become such a person, but I missed and gave up such an opportunity, so I had to become someone else, but I also missed and gave up on becoming the person I wanted to be. In the end, I could only become the person I didn't want to be, just like my parents, hahahahahaha. That's all, I still don't think about it anymore and want to think about other things. Maybe I am destined to be someone I don't want to be. This is the path of most people, I don't know, haha. Well